You and me - Chris Sturniolo

"Alec?"

I pull my face out of my pillow and Chris is staring at me

His hand makes its wayto my face and my eyes close and he pushes my hair out of the way

"I got you food" I say crinoline a Taco bell bag

I sigh and sit up and cross my legs

He slides what must be my food over to me and I open the bag

He got what I usually get of course

He remembered

He gets his food and we both start eating

"Are you okay" he says breaking the silence

I look in my lap and swallow hard

"What" I say quietly

"B" he says and I feel his eyes on me

"I'm fine" I look up

"Why wouldn't I be?" I ask smiling

"Are you sure" he says

"Mhm" I say trying to sound enthusiastic

I crumple up my garbage and toss it onto the floor the same way I have been for almost a week

Chris sets his down on the floor and scoots towards me

"Yn" he says hold my cheek with one hand

"Yeah?" I look at his arm leading from him to me

"Your lying" he says

I pull away calmly and look down at my hands, picking the skin around my fingernails

He goes silent which might be worse than when he talks

"Um.. can we just go to sleep" I say quietly because I feel a lump in my throat and don't feel like talking too much or ill start crying

"Course" he says and I lay down

He pulls my comforter over us and I cling onto him and feel his warmth that I haven't felt in too long

He technically backwards spoon, he's on his side and so am I

Facing eachother I lay against him llwith my legs curled up and tangled in his

I have one hand on the bottom side of my face and my throat continues to hurt

His arm falls over me keeping me in place and he rubs my back

I close my eyes, picturing things I wish never happened

I feel my eyes tingle in that weird painful way before you begin to cry

I squeeze my eyes shut and try hard to stay silent

A tear slowly falls down sideways on my face. From my right eye, over the bridge of my nose, to my left cheek, and soaks into ny hand

More rush the same trail and I breath harder

Chris must have noticed because he pulled me in closer and held me tighter into him

I tried to steady my breathing like Matt had taught me too

I swallow hard and use the neck of my shirt to wipe my face of tears

~Flashback~

I walk into my shoot ready to work a tiring day and just ready to get it done

My manager points to my dressing room as he always does, and I go in to change

This outfit is for sure not for me. Not my style, my type, it's just not something I would wear regularly

It's...skimpy and it's just not me

I go to my shoot and I have the same older guy I had in the past

I've come to learn that his name is Alec

He's a quite nice man

We pose and for our photos and once our shoots are done for the day,

I go to change back to my normal day clothes from when I came

I walk into my dressing room not looking in the mirror ahead of me

I pull my phone out of my purse and check some messages and notifications

The door closes and the look clicks to my right

I look over and Alec turns towards me after..locking the door?

"Alec? What are you do-" I start and his hands meet my body