" i couldn’t hate you, i tried a lot of time but it never happened "
"Oh" yoongi said as he looked down
Hoseok sighed "you really hurt me, in fact you broke me completely.. I am not the same hoseok i was in the past.
I am not living yoongi.. i am Just alive. I am just breathing
Without you my life it’s feels useless incomplete, i am incomplete without you
Even tho we are not together, i still celebrate all our special day
How i wish everyday you were with me, we were together.
It's hard pretending everyday to be okay when i am clearly not.
Five year is a lot of time, people may call me crazy for still not moving on, but i don’t care, It's not like i didn’t tried to i did. Jungkook and namjoon tried to set me up for many blind dates.
I meet new people's, i tried going out with them, hanging out, but as soon as i would kiss them everything would fall apart
My mind would be full of your faces, our memories.
After a while i stopped, i told basically threatened jungkook and namjoon to stop otherwise i would run away somewhere And would never return "
Hoseok left out a soft laugh as his eyes were glossy, yoongi listened to him carefully, not daring to speak a single word. Hoseok took his time before speaking again
" those people i went out they weren’t you, i just want you. The thoughts of be with someone else terrified me. Made me wanted to just die, i went to therapy, i still go occasionally. My therapies said everything will be fine one day
One day i will move on
They said times will heal everything
But yoongi time doesn’t heal everything even if it does, it leaves a very big and deep scar in our heart.
A scar which always remind us of our pain, the pain we went thorough, our past, our memories, everything
I wont ask you why suddenly backed away from our relationship. I am giving you the freedom to chose to tell me whenever you are ready
But yoongi are you sure about the things happening right now? Are you sure you love me And want me back?"
" y-yes hoseok. I am sure, i can bet that on my life " yoongi said eyes full of tears and determination
" because yoongi if you break my hurt again this time
I wont be able to live
This time you wont be able to save me like the last time
And i will make sure of it "
Hoseok said as he trace one of his finger on his left wrist which had a scar which was almost faded
" i promise you hoseok i wont break your heart this time, i wont be able to live if i loss you once Again " yoongi said carefully tracing the same place on hoseok hands
Hoseok smiled, a genuine smile, a smile which directly came from his heart and reached his beautiful brown eyes.
Yoongi stare at hoseok eyes, his heart is hurting like a bitch, the pain he gave hoseok was beyond imagination, thinking back maybe yoongi shouldn’t have done what he did. Maybe he should have told hoseok the truth, maybe they both would find a way, maybe they wouldn’t be where they are right now.
Maybe
Just maybe
It’s not like yoongi didn’t suffered after separating from hoseok. He too suffered, he too wished to be death with every breath he took, he too fall into deep depression, if it wasn’t for jimin and taehyung he too would have been long gone
The real reason the three of them live together
Yoongi took a deep breath as he held hoseok both hands, hoseok moved closer to yoongi's body, hoseok put his head on yoongi's shoulder as they both admire the night beauty
In eachother arms, with yoongi's tight hold on hoseok hands, those hands delivering a promise,
A promise of never leaving those beautiful warm hands
A promise that everything will be Alright
A promise that they will be keep loving eachother no matter what
A promise of togetherness
~To be continue~
A/N: before anyone say they are moving too fast. Let me clear they are not. In this chapter Only talk about hoseok feelings. The way he is feeling about all of this. Hoseok wants to be with yoongi so he is making sure yoongi Isn't playing with his feelings. Hoseok was trying to hint yoongi the consequences of their current and past action.
Have a great day/night lovies.
VOCÊ ESTÁ LENDO
Left At The Aisle //yoonseok\/sope//
Fanfic" In every Love story there's always an third person who gets hurt / left alone.. In our story it was me, i am the one who became the third person, i am the one who was left alone, i am the one who got hurt, i am the one who was left at the aisle "...
Moonlight
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