Draco x Y/n

Wired feeling

It's been a week since i became a death eater, i have this depresing feeling over me, i don't really know how to explain it, it's like i'm drowning, like everything just run's around me and i'm just standing there, i can't do anything, i can't move, i can't scream for help.

I know i'm living, it just feels like i'm standing in one place and everything is speed up, i can't concentrate, i can't hear.

At the moment i just want everything to stop, the voices in my head, the pain in my body, the feeling of being a disgusting death eater.

Is this how Draco feel? Mattheo, Theo?

"Y/n?" Tate asks, i look confused at her,

"Did you say something?" I ask her, her look changes to a worried one,

"What is going on with you these days?" She asks me placing her book on the table,

"What do you mean?"

"You are acting wired, you never hear what we ask you about you don't listen in class, you don't really eat and when you can you stay in your bed, so what's going on?" She says softly touching my left shoulder,

"Nothing, don't worry about it" I mumble, looking around the libary as i hear voices,

"Somthing is going on, please tell me, i just want to help" She answers 

"It's nothing, so just leave it!"

"Show me"

"Show you what!?" I ask her annoyed,

"I know it, don't think i'm an idiot, you always wear long shirts, you always change in the bathroom and you never let me touch your left arm"

"I don't know what the fuck you are talking about" I say packing my things up,

"Y/n don't lie to me!"'

"I'm not fucking lying!" I answer almost yelling, "Now if you will excuse me, i don't really wanna be around you right now" I say leaving her alone,

"I'M GONNA PROVE IT!" She yells after me. Fucking bitch.

I quickly walk down to my dorm placing my bag on the table and crawl into my bed,i feel warm tears rolling down my cheeks.

I just want it to end. I want everything to end. Mostly the pain, i can't really descibe it, everything just hurts.

About an hour later the door opens and Tate enters, i sigh annoyed as i see her roll her eyes at me.

"Dinner is starting soon wanna come with me?" She asks, it really dosn't sound like she want me to say yes,

"Yes" I answer, just to piss her off,

"Then get up" She says annoyed, i quickly get up from my bed and pull my hair up in a ponytail.

We then walk down to the greathall in completly silence. I sit down beside Draco and Tate,

"Hey angel" Draco says side hugging me,

"Hi" I mumble staring at the wall behind Theo, without i notice Tate grabs my left arm pulling my sleave down,

"I FUCKING KNEW IT!" She yells, everyone turns to us, i quickly pull my arm to myself but it's too late, everyone stares at me with fear in their eyes, Draco get's up and walks over to Tate, without a word he hit her hard with his fist right in her face.

"Mr. Malfoy!" McGonagall yells, Draco dosn't listen and hit Tate again, "MR. MALFOY STOP IT!" McGonagall yells, Her and Snape runs down to us pulling Draco away from Tate. I feel tears burn in my eyes, i quickly get up and walk out of the greathall,

"LET ME FUCKING GO!" I hear Draco yell.

Once i'm out of the greathall i begin to run to the astromny tower, i don't know why but i just wanna be there.

Oncce i'm there i run over to the realing, i try to stop the tears but they just keep streaming down my face. Everyone is gonna hate me. They're gonna fear me.

"Y/n?" A soft voice asks, i turn around and run into Draco's open arms, "It's okay angel, it's okay" He whispers holding me like the world is gonna end, "I will always be here for you"

I try to form a sentence but end up crying even more,

"Shhhh it's okay love, it's okay i'm here, don't think about it" He says hugging me tighter, my knees starts to shake just as i'm about to fall Draco lifts me up, "I love you so so so much" he whispers, "Let's get you to your dorm" He says and starts walking with me in his arms.

Theres students everywhere on their way to their dorms, they all sends me and Draco disgusted looks,

"Just look like you don't care" He whispers to me,

"H-How!?" I ask pointing at my face,

"You got a good point there" He mumbles, while starting walking faster,

"WHAT THE FUCK Y/N!" Someone yells, i look around seeing Harry, Ron and Hermione, Draco softly sit me down,

"I can't belive you!" Ron says with disgust plantet all over his face,

"Oh do i look like one who wants to be a part of his little killer club!?" I ask almost yelling, "GETTING A DISGUSTING MARK BURNED INTO MY SKIN!?"

"YOU HATE HARRY WE SHOULD HAVE SEEN THIS COMING!" Ron yells back,

"I DON'T WANNA FUCKING KILL HIM!"

"Let's just go love" Draco says dragging me with him, i look around us people have startet to form a crowd Tate is one of them, i pull my arm out of Draco's grab and walk over to her with angry steps before she can say or do anything i hit her hard right under her right eye,

"Bitch" I mumble and walk away with Draco.

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The saddest thing about betrayl is that it never comes from your enemies.