Alone

I feel so alone constantly now

Even surrounded by loved ones

It's an inner loneliness deep down

I know they're there, but I'm still alone

Looking around at everyone else I see

I have nothing am nothing and am so

It pains me deep within but smile still

I used to be different way back then

I wasn't so deep within my shell

I made friends so easily all the time

I held no reservation about who I was

As I grew older they grew more hostile

Fatass, nerd, teachers pet, and more

I though it didn't bother me, but it did

I became quiet to not draw attention

I ignored everyone and shut them out

This shell became strong and I hid

Even those that would be friends I shut out

I regret every day I never opened up

I regret I let them win and let them affect me so

I lost so many friends so many experiences because of that

I have no memories of back then

All I see is me alone, deep inside

And deep within lies that hate

Deep within lies that rage

Deep within lies who I used to be

I feel so alone constantly now

I have my family and some friends

But it's still a different thing

I see wht might've been and wonder

What if I had been stronger braver

Would I be the same or would I be me

I think back and remember a different time

I did fight back once, released this hate

I did once so long ago, I fought back

I fought and I couldn't stop I hit and hit

I was pulled stopped by someone and sent off

Never would I go there again never

No matter how much hate was given

I held it in and poisoned myself

I suffer now, I stand with noone, I am

Alone..

I stand here now at the edge, staring

down deep into the abyss,and so I wait

I stand alone so I have no reservation I have nothing, am nothing, have noone

Please, I dare you.. Bring me that pain

I have so much to give back, I am that

And because of you I was never me

So when you come be ready i have nothing to lose

still even then in the end I will be

again ...so Alone