The Contract

Chapter 31

I was a bit jealous but I didn't care enough, I mean I know loves me plus she is an ex for a reason

"Im listening" I whisper caressing his hair

"Things were going good, well so I thought. Then one day she comes up to me when I was in the middle of the a meeting with a pregnancy test"

Holly fucking shittt

"I ended the meetings and looked at the pregnancy test, it was positive Allison. I mhm I was freaking out in my head but I wasn't going to ask her to get rid of it because I'm not stable right not money wise. I told her i'll become stable by the time the baby comes and she agreed. I went to these appointments with her and everything was fine. On September 15th she asked me to drive her to the beach so we can sit and enjoy the sunset, but while driving back, I swear the car came out of nowhere"

My breath hitches a little hearing that

"We were rushed to the hospital and though I was fine, I was freaking out because she was in the operation room. Hours went by and once I finally get to go in her room after the operation she was crying so much. She told me we lost our baby"

"im so sorry Xan" I whisper kissing his head

"Oh, don't be" he chuckles sadly

"She was sleeping and the doctor came in, he checked her vitals and everything, lets me know everything is fine. A couple days go by and she gets discharged, it didn't take too long for her to move on from he loss of the baby but I was In so much guilt because I was the reason we lost our kid. October 4th, I had a meeting that was scheduled last minute so before I could tell her, I had to go to dinner with this client, i was half way through the dinner when I saw her coming in with a guy, at first I thought it was a friend so I ignore it but when my meeting ended I go to her booth where she was and see her making out with the same guy. Long story short, she didn't lose the baby AL, she had an abortion a couple days before the accident and guess what, I wasn't the father, it was the guy she was making out with" he says

"Xan im so sorry" I whisper

"Don't be, she was cheating on me for almost 6 months and she was happy that we had an accident because she got an excuse"

"Thats so fucked up Alex"

"Tell me about it. I still feel like maybe it was my fault that the baby is gone, though it wasn't mine but I get nightmares of people being taken away from me especially around this time of the year"

"Its okay" I whisper

"This morning I had a nightmare that I lost you in an mhm an accident and I can't live without you Allison. I thought I loved my ex but I swear love wasn't what I felt for her. Love is what I feel for you and I know this because I would gladly walk in a fire if it meant you'd smile for me. I would kill a dozen if it meant you are safe. I used to have nightmares about mom and dad being gone but this morning when I saw the one with you being gone, I couldn't handle it. Im so so sorry that I yelled at you and left"

"No, its okay. I understand what you went through Xan, but if you leave like that then we don't get to talk over things and work them out. It worries me when you leave like that and not knowing where you were was scary for me. Now I completely get what you went through and I promise to make sure we work through this but you cannot disappear like that on me ever"

"I won't, I promise" he whispers

"Good boy"

"Hey that makes me feel like a tiny boy who is being schooled by his mama" I chuckle at his words and the tiny pout his lips had formed

"Well you sure as hell aren't tiny but I will say this, sometimes you need to let people inside. You are a big boy Alex but sometimes you need comfort so from the act sometimes and let me hold you like a child"

"Baby its not that I don't want to, do you know the amount of times I have wanted to let you hold me but it feels like I should be the ones holding you"

"No, just let me hold you all the time okay"

"Okay" he whispers

"And this girl, is she still around?" I ask

"Ya somewhere on the second floor of our company"

"Wait the second floor?" I ask

"Yeah, mhm I didn't know until a year or two ago but honestly I didn't care enough to move the whole company so"

"Do I gotta give her side eyes if I see her?" I ask making him laugh

"No baby, it's fine. It took a while to come to terms with everything but it's fine"

"Very well, now may I know why you hit rick?"

"He called you names, you should be happy I didn't break his nose, fucking motherfucker" he growls in my chest

"How your behaved today was"

"Was sexy and hot, I know but I will not do it again, not until he crosses a line and I swear this time I will break him god damn arms and legs" he mumbles as he places soft kisses in the valley of my cleavage

"Alex"

"I am very sorry for ruining your day today and ending the pool party like that" he apologies again

"It's okay, tom will be better" I say

"Yes it will, is there a plan for tom?" He asks

"Yes, we are going to the amusement park and then the day after I think is a very chill day with barbecue and pool party things int he evening and then we can head home"

"About that, we are going to go home for a couple days and then we fly out"

"Where?" I ask

"Bora bora" he whispers

"For business?"

"For our honeymoon" hearing his words my cheeks heat up a little

"Honeymoon?" I ask

"Yes, honeymoon. About time we go have fun instead of staying home"

"I like ur home, its cozy" I whine

"I do too babe, but I want to go on a vacation with you"

"Very well mr Scott"

He chuckles a bit still placing soft kisses on my chest, his kisses became a bit sloppy and then completely stopped as he fell a sleep making me smile. This man is perfect with me and for me