missing

Everything is blurry I have no sense of mind. I've been taking meds getting high and drinking every night to ease my pain. Everything still isn't going good I'm still deep down at rock bottom. One day I've had enough my mom treated my sister like a princess while I was cleaning up her messes and doing her chores. My mom slapped me for speaking abt how I feel, my dad isn't around anymore he has another family now. I packed my bags stole my moms money used my back up phone and ran off. I knew where I was going but first I had to get some drinks a drugs for me and my friend. Her house was in a whole other state I meet her at one of my mom meeting with her businesses and one of the moms kids where there. One of them happens to be my age I got her phone number and told her my plain and her mom didn't like mine so she agreed with it. Her mom picked me up at the gas station, her mom didn't know what I made with me tho. It was a success we made it to her house, my mom has no way of contacting me bc of the back up phone who only had my new friends and her moms number in it. I had all my stuff I needed including clothes,hair stuff, jewelry, money and decor for her new room. My room was right next to my new friends room let's call her Lola, Lola was like me drug addict and her mom is chill and layed back unlike my mom is. My room had its own bathroom too they even put a vanity in there where I can put my makeup and other stuff. I had a queen size bed which is perfect bc I usually sleep in a twin sized bed, I started to make myself at home I put all my blankets and pillows on the bed. I put my makeup and makeup brushes in the first draw in the vanity, then I put my hairbrushes,hair tools(straighter/curler/wavy), ponytails,hair clips, hair masks in the middle drawer. Then in the last drawer I had my skin care, my jewelry is in a jewelry box on top of the vanity. I had just finished making my bed, my vanity,my walls,my floor and putting my led lights up when I get an alert... it said "there is a missing teenager on the lose last seen wearing a black hoodie with white sweats and a black hat with yellow and purple socks, I had shoes if they wouldn't tell but maybe my mom did kinda care abt me or they wanted to money. But I ignored it but then Lola came into my room she liked it but said "they sent out an alert police are looking for you" I just ended up telling her to calm down bc we literally live over 40 hours away they aren't gonna be able to find me plus this isn't the phone I used so they can't track it. I had many other clothes plus I went shopping, but my mom posted a picture on her TikTok,Facebook,Insta,Snapchat and twitter of me saying I was missing. So I had to cut my hair and I got tattoos got braces and colored my hair got a passport faked an Id too so this way they can never find me. Lola told me that her mom is going to see my mom bc apparently she's a reck but most likely she just wants me for chores. Lola mom already left bc we live a long way from there but my mom let's call her Silvia wasn't even crying she straight up told Lola mom aka Leila that she doesn't even want me... I was used to that news so I didn't really care she's the reason why I ran off anyway, so that day Lola also took me to a festival. No one reckoned me thank god bc if anyone did I would die. We ended up going on a ton of roller coasters but she bumped into this boy and she ended up getting his number some how but idk bc I was to high to remember. We left there stumbling out of a Uber laughing our butts off her mom wasn't home thankfully, we both ended up passing out but her mom woke us up the next morning. She yelled at us bc the house was a "mess" we both go scared for a sec thinking she found out abt us getting high n drunk but it wasn't messing tho. There wasn't dirt clothes or stuff everywhere but she was talking abt the dishes bc she told Lola to do the dishes. I told her I would and she didn't have a problem with that but that's all I ended up doing that day bc me and Lola went into our rooms bc her mom had a meeting to attend online and she was in the living room which meant before her meeting we had to make our food and get snacks. Her meeting was over 4 hours long and me and Lola brainstormed what we wanted to do tomorrow but all
we agreed one was shopping. So the next day comes and we went shopping and I got more skincare and room decor plus some stuff like candles I also got a few things for her mom. A few years go by and I'm still living there but I'm over 18 now I was 16 when I moved in and ofc went to school and collage for  cosmetology and Lola mom said it was time for me to talk to my mom again bc my mom is now maybe in her late 40's  and her other daughter id probably a brat. now I'm 21 now with a really good job I pay most of rent bc Lola mom is 51 and Lola works with me but she pays for her moms health. It's also now legal for me to get high and drink Lola is a few months younger then me she's still 20 but she's abt to turn 21. Lola's mom gave me my mom phone number and said to call her which I did and she answered she said she was gonna call the police but they can't do nothing now that I'm over 18. So I ended up visiting her she still had nothing to do with me until I told her abt me going to uni and making over 1b a year and ofc she wanted my money. I forgot how selfish she was after all I haven't seen her in years, but I didn't like the situation I was in and I ran away again. This time I had my own money no friends and no where to stay and I ended up sleeping on a yard when the owners took me in. I bruised me if I'm being honest my ex bsf now mom started to abuse and did my bsf... I was tore up in my heart realized they didn't care the woman who took was old and wanted someone to take care of her so I helped her I made her tea and she asked me what I was doing in her yard and I had to explain what happen and that I'm a drug addict she took me in and adopted as her own but 2 days she's died... she gave her house and money bc she didn't have any family left I was heart broken I relapsed on my sh and started to take less drugs bc I was sleeping but she had a dog and I had to keep the dog safe. I started to go back to school but then summer come and everyone asked why I was hearing hoodies and giving away my stuff I just told them they where old and I didn't want them even tho that wasn't the truth. A few days later I put the dog up for adoption and someone took him, everything going as planned I sold the house for $10,000 and then left and went for a swim at the beach. It's was 1am when I left the beach and took over 1 pounds of drugs and layed on the side of the rode and passed out.. I was never seen again.

     -Byanca