Some days I stay up, other days I sleep. One or the other, they are left unsaid when. Just a pitch of silence to fill in. Sometimes it's music.
Tears stream every so often at the face of darkness. An epitome of something, nothing, yet everything. Mixed together. But emptiness.
An unknown feeling comes over, it's overwhelming. Too many, too little. Unidentified to my heart, at a fault.
I cry, I don't, frustrated, angry at myself. Why
I don't feel, blank, empty, void, watching. Why
Sad, hurt, pain, coldness felt that heat can't fill.
Touch starved, love less, feelings unfulfilled. Why? Why? Why? Unanswered, cannot be...
I don't know, I don't understand, I'm sorry,
It's my fault, it's hard to explain, unexpressed.
It should be simple, life is simple. Is it?
... I'm not sure, surely not? Right? Is it?
Where? Where am I going? Walking aimlessly.
What? What am I doing? I'm not sure...? Am I?
Who? Who am I? I must not be human at all...
Too much, too little. Selfish, selfless.
Eat more, eat less. Silence, noise.
Entertainment.
Entertainment..
Entertainment...
Disgusting, how could I? How dare I? To do such things? How could I turn to that? Why would I? Was it worth it? Did you have FUN, fun, FUN, fun??? You didn't. You?
No matter what you do, to try to fill an empty void, it remains to be as empty as the day before, a sick child you are. You know this, yet you still struggle, yearning for something. Anything. Ignorance is bliss. Did you regret.
You? You? You? YOU? What are you? Who are you? What are you doing? Why are you doing that? When will you stop, it's hopeless? Do you want? Do you crave? Ah.. I know. I know what.
An attention seeker. That's what you are.
You want someone to pay attention to you?
Have you not learned yet? You never do..?
Or... you have been told that by others....
A facade to hide the real you, what are you?
You, one, who doesn't know who it is. A child?
Far from it. Just something no one will understand, ever. You're not human.
What will you do, now that you know?
S U I C I D E
That's right you never learn... don't you remember? What happened last time?
Locked away and turned away. Gone
Lock your emotions before it happens.
Pretend, mask, joke, hide, two faced?
Don't try suicide. You're worth it...
;) you understand right? No.
It would be a shame if you didn't.
Only those who are will be, like you.
Likewise. Same. Just as fucked up.
Never ending.... Never stopping.... Never there
