Last First Kiss

Night Changes

I tried to go to sleep, and I thought I had. But I couldn't...I couldn't even live with myself let alone find peace. I looked up at Harry who was starting to cry. I didn't want to see him suffer any longer.....

"Harry....will you sing me a song?" I asked. I wanted to hear his sweet voice as I repositioned myself next to him. At least he wouldn't cry anymore.....

Then I heard him sing....

When you try your best, but you don't succeed....
When you get what you want, but not what you need.....
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep....

Stuck in reverse.....

And the tears come streaming down your face...
When you lose something you can't replace....
When you love someone, but it goes to waste...

Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home...
And ignite your bones...
And I will try.....
To fix you

And high up above, or down below...
When your too in love, to let it go...
But if you never try, you'll never know...

Just how much your worth....

Lights will guide you home...
And ignite your bones...
And I will try.....
To fix you

Suddenly I felt a teardrop fall on my face. I turned around and saw Harry wiping his eyes. I pulled his arm around me even more, holding him in my embrace. He leaned over me, and pecked my lips. I smiled slightly and wiped the tears from my own eyes.

"Thank you..." I whispered into his ear. He grabbed my arms and pulled me over on top of him. He kissed my forehead as I laid on his chest. I wiped the tears that had escaped his eyes and kissed his cheek.

"Anything for you...." He answered softly.

Harry's POV

I chose Fix You because it fitted so perfectly with us. Like it was made for us. I sang it to her gently and felt the tears come back. There had been so much crying lately, I barely even noticed it. I wiped my eyes, recognizing the lyrics. From then on, it would be our song....

Then I felt my arm being pulled around her. She took my arm and wrapped it around her. I heard her through tears of her own. "Thank you..." I pulled my arm out and brought her onto my chest. I kissed her nose and felt a tear slide down my cheek.

She put her hand to my face wiping it away. Then she kissed my cheek.
"Anything for you." I said, feeling my cheeks turn red.

I let her fall asleep on top of me, rubbing her arm that was draped over my stomach. I tried to breath lightly so that she wouldn't wake up, keeping it steady and calm as my chest rose and fell.

I needed to make a decision. I figured I could use this time now to think and concentrate. I kissed her forehead lightly then stared into the roof. My mind became filled with thoughts as I tried to pick the best possible way.

I could tell her my options and let her decide, but that would be too easy. I would end up hurting her again. I could just work through the fears but I didnt want to let my word be broken. Or, I could just.....no.

I couldn't just let her go like that. I was too in love. I needed her....

All of a sudden I was clouded with memories of us - together. When I first saw her lying here instead of me. When I took her hand to help her home the day she left. The day we kissed....

No. Stop Harry. Don't do this to yourself. Its not about you, its about her. I'm not going to be selfish and make her deal with pain.....I just couldn't.

I looked down at her sleeping face and took a deep breath, keeping my chest as low as I could. She didn't wake up.

Good. She deserved to sleep after the day she's had. That's when I realized what I needed to do.

I decided to.......