Regrets ; a.i

First Dates Suck

Ashton's hand slide on my thigh and he pulled on it, I knew he wanted me to jump up, but I wouldn't obey him that easy. Not today.

I took my hand and took his hands off me. "I really should go," I slowly licked my lips and I slipped on my sandals. "Bye Ashton," I whispered and grabbed the handle of the door.

He sighed and pushed his bottom lip out. "Can't you just stay a little longer?"

I hummed before I shook my head. "Stay, for you? Now why would I do that?"

He chuckled and took both my hands with his and lead me a few steps away from the door. "Because I want you to stay."

"So the more reason I should get back home." I nod back to the door.

He hummed and took a few steps closer to me. "Fine," he murmured under his breath. "Goodnight, Jen," he kissed me and held tightly into my hands.

I felt as if I could've been on clouds, and I loved it so much. I wanted to stay with Ashton all night, don't get me wrong, but I felt I shouldn't.

The sound of the door opening has both Ashton and I jump apart. We both stared at the door and closely kept our eyes on Calum as he walked through the door.

He glanced at both of us then slowly shut the door behind him. "Hey Ash and... Jen," he said it slowly.

"Hey, but I'm actually just leaving, so bye," I mumbled and started to open the door.

"Wait, is Reagan here?" Calum asked.

I stopped and slowly turned around to face him. "No... why?"

Calum shrugged. "I don't know, you normally come here with her. But I mean I'm sure you had your reason, or maybe it's a secret. We all have secrets though, but I mean, everyone has different ones." He rambled on a bit longer. "So why are you here?" He raised one of his eyebrows.

I frowned and looked at him like he was crazy. "I'm going to ignore that because I want to, and I'm going to slowly walk away like I never heard that." I nodded and quickly rushed out the door.

I went straight home and I prayed that I wouldn't get in trouble for showing up so late. It was only about midnight, since we started that movie at about ten and before that Ashton and I watched tv and had dinner and talked.

I walked through my door and placed my key on my key hook and hummed quietly the song that had been playing in the car.

I looked up and screamed when I saw Reagan standing in my living room. She smiled and I swore I had a heart attack. I placed my hand on my chest and took a few deep breathes. "Oh my god, you scared the shit out of me."

Reagan laughed lightly. "Sorry. I didn't mean to scare you or to be a burden now, but, do you mind if I spend the night?"

I nodded, "sure." Fuck it was too late to argue and she was already here.

She smiled. "Thanks, so why were you out so late?" She nudged me and wiggled her eyebrows.

I laughed and shook my head. "No." Even though her reaction was kind of right but I couldn't tell her I had been with Ashton.

Honestly, I wanted to tell Reagan that I liked Ashton and that I had been spending a bunch of time with him lately, but I was scared. I didn't want to see her reaction, and I already knew she'd tell me to stop whatever it was and to walk away, but I didn't want to do that. I liked Ashton, and I didn't want to stop doing what we were doing because Reagan didn't approve.

Reagan couldn't ruin this guy, she couldn't ruin it, not this time, not again. I won't let her.

~ End Of Flash Back ~

I blink and realize the movie is now over and the Ethan had replaced hand holding with his arm around me and I have my head leaning against his shoulder.

He smells really good, I'll give him that, but it feels weird to be like this with him. Ethan is one of my oldest and best friends, and even if he left my life for a few years it doesn't feel like he did.

"That was a good movie," he comments.

I nod my head and I slowly sit up and he takes his arm off from around my shoulders. "Yeah, it was," the parts I saw were pretty good.

He smiles at me with his perfect smile and I smile back and we get to our feet, collect our things and start to walk out of the theatre.

"So, out of my curiosity, was this a date?" I'm scared to know the answer, but I want to know what he thinks.

He smiled widely, his dimples poking out and he looks at the ground. "If you wanted it to be."

I lick my lips and watch him. "Did you want it to be?" I don't think I wanted it to be a date, and I don't know if I'm in the steady emotional state to start dating. Then again, it's been a few months and it's about time for me to date someone again.

He shrugs. "Yeah, I kind of really wanted this to be a date." Ethan blushes and looks at me.

I smile and nod my head. "Okay, well it felt like a date if that counts." I chuckle slightly awkwardly. He laughs and loops his arm around my shoulders.

"Then let's call it a date. First dates normally suck anyways, better to get it out of the way now."

I laugh and lean myself into him a bit. "I'll only call it a first date if you kiss me at my doorstep at the end," I smirk.

Ethan laughs, "you think I wouldn't have even if it wasn't a date?"

I smile wide and shut my eyes, enjoying this moment. "I honestly think, you wouldn't have kissed at all, and I'm still debating whether or not you will toni -"

I'm cut off in my sentence by the feeling of foreign lips against mine. I loose my breath and all my thoughts vanish at the soft intense feeling I get at the feeling of Ethan's lips.

He pulls away and grins. "I'll still kiss you at your door step if you want," he smirks and winks.

I lick my lips and feel myself blush. "Yeah, you should still do that," I say softly.

My stomach feels funny in knots and the feeling of his lips still lingers on mine.

"Don't worry, I would've even if you told me not to," he whispers in my ear and leads me out of the building.

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Jen and Ethan Idk how to feel bout it

Question(sort of): okay so like later on in this story I'm bringing a new character in the story. So, my question is, if I were to ask if any of you wanted to be in this story as that character, would you? I'm only asking now so if I were to make an A/N about it later on I know someone would be interested

Sorry for being sucky with my updates, I've been studying for exams and shit :/