Nothing

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In the middle of the night, 1995/08/13, Nowhere

Nothing.

That's what I feel since July.

Nothing.

That's what I think since July.

Nothing.

That's what I tell me since July.

I'm in a dark room. A little, dark room.

In the middle of the night.

In the middle of nowhere.

In the middle of the dark.

In the middle of the cold room.

In the middle of nothing.

Since July the 16th I forbid me to feel anything.

Nothing.

No happiness, no sadness, not angrily, no regret, no shame, no fear, no disgust, no surprise, no joy, no pleasure, no amusement, no pride, no awe, no excitement, no ecstasy, no loneliness, not hopeful, not miserable, not anxious, not nervous, not scared, not hopeless, not stressed, not panicked, not frustrated, not bitter, not mad, not insulted, not horrified, not offended, not relaxed, not calmly, not alarmed, not depressed, not bored, not tired, not fine, no acceptance, no distraction, no interest, not jealous, no embarrassment, no affection, no agony, no confusion, no desire, no empathy, no trust.

Nothing.

And the most important.

I forbid me to feel love.

Never again.

I don't like humans anymore.

I don't like even me anymore.

I don't like nothing anymore.

But I don't hate anything, also if I wanted.

It was forbidden.

I forbid me to feel anything.

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So, this FanFic won't have many updates, since I'll only write in this one when I'm sad or very angry or I want to disconnect from all.

Pleas understand this and don't criticize me.

Thank you very much.

Never forget, you mean the whole world for someone, even if you don't know this person yet.

M.🖤