Her Muse (Collection of Poems)

That December

You called me, texted me, asked me where I was,

While I ignored you, ditched you and avoided you

I knew you wanted to see me, but I didn't care

I kept pushing you away not considering how you felt that day

Your gaze that penetrated my body melted my heart

I couldn't look at your passionate eyes; I felt sorry

I was afraid of losing you but more terrified of loving you

I believed I don't deserve a perfect man like you.

That gift you gave me symbolizes your effort and passion,

It was so dumb of me to let you go, while I held onto it

I was too lovely, too pure in that portrait,

My heart's throbbing so fast, always in motion

The next day I lost you and it was all because of me

You held my hand, but I lose my grip

That's when I realized I never held onto yours in the first place

You kept me by your side while I took you for granted

We fell out of touch, and I was haunted

By all the good things you'd made to make me feel wanted

Here I am longing, yearning you from afar

Missing every piece of your beautiful heart.

   scaredycaaat