(I don't really like this one. I wrote it about a year ago, and now I found it in my notes. I think that now I would write it completely differently, but at least we can see if my writing has changed.
...oh and i promise i'm not as depressed as it might seem after reading my songs lol)
sometimes I feel like the whole world hates me
but that's ok cuz sometimes i hate me too
and I wonder why anyone should care about me
cause I'm not perfect, that's the truth
I'm sorry that my room is a mess, just like my life
I'm sorry that I don't want to just smile and be quiet
and that I don't want to grow up just to be a supportive wife
and that I'm not some model even if I try a diet
to all the people who believe in me
to everyone who hasn't given up on me yet
to all those who love me for me
I'm sorry that sometimes I'm a disappointment
I'm sorry that most of the time it's hard with me
all my bad decisions, let me forget
I'd like to know how others see me
I hope not as a disappointment
sorry I won't leave my room all day
I just lie in my bed for hours
I try to send my sad thoughts away
forget how he never bought me flowers
and I'm sorry I get panic attacks
even if nobody knows about it
because they would just say: „you need to relax"
and I'm scared but I won't ever admit it
to all the people who believe in me
to everyone who hasn't given up on me yet
to all those who love me for me
I'm sorry that sometimes I'm a disappointment
I'm sorry that most of the time it's hard with me
all my bad decisions, let me forget
I'd like to know how others see me
I hope not as a disappointment
I'm sorry that I've been getting bad grades
I'm sorry for staying up late at night
I'm sorry I don't answer your texts
and I'm sorry that I don't always do what's right
I'm sorry I don't wear what you want
I'm sorry for being selfish
I'm sorry for trying to prove my point
and I'm sorry for my birthday wish
sorry for wasting it on some dude who doesn't love me back
I'm already standing at the beginning of the track
but suddenly everything is going black
I think I'm having another panic attack
sorry for saying sorry all the time
but thanks for not giving up on me yet
it's nice to have a partner in crime
who doesn't see me as a disappointment
