Damaged love

Chapter 4: confessions

Getting dressed to go and have breakfast she still hasn't seen troy I just hope last night he didn't regret it or nothing I hope he ain't avoiding me for it

Sitting down on the bench on my own nick walking over and sitting down next to me

" hey "

" hey "

" so you going out this morning "

"What's happening this morning "

" well troy and all different people are going to find some more supplies I thought he would of ask you to come along "

" I guess not "

"Are you 2 fine it's just seem that this morning troy had something on his mind "

Lilly froze what he did has regrets from last night and he doesn't have feeling for me and I have ruined are friendship all together so maybe he is avoiding me then

" I got to go nick bit it was nice talking to ya but I got to go find troy "

" his by the car packing if that helps "

" thanks "

Walking over to the main gate where nick told me to go troy was packing the back on the car like he said so I walked over to speak to him but some people were their but I just got to ask him and talk to him about last night

" hey troy your girlfriends "

" she's not my girlfriend " troy stop and looked at me

" what are you doing here Lilly "

" I need to talk to ya for a minute " troy looked at me and then the men

" alone "

Then the men all walked off

" the is nothing to talk about Lilly we are very busy this morning we can talk later or something "troy having his back to ya

" do you regret it or something "

" what "

" last night so you regret it I know it was not a good thing to do has we are friends but it felt right to me at least and I woke up this morning and you was gone I haven't seen you all day it's like you are avoiding me or something " Lilly starts to have tears in her eyes

Troy noticing He walked over and grabbed your face

" listen I didn't regret anything last night ok it was just a shock that's you know I have never down anything before with a girl it was just weird on what to feel "

"How did you think I felt I have myself to you and it just felt that you "

"What "

" I don't know ,I don't know how I feel after that I feel different but I just don't know what happens after this "

" after "

"Yeah "

"Well nothing "

"What "

" well it happened and now we don't speak of it that's all ain't like it's going to happen again is it "

" oh " Lilly said abit upset she didn't know what to say to troy for Lilly to do that and to let troy have her virginity it was a big thing and for him to say it meant nothing but sex it's upsetting

"Ok well I let you get back to your thing with the guys then "Lilly walking off

" Lilly " troy called her

"It's fine I'm ok just 2 friends that just had a moment just pretend it never happened I will see you later for the party "

Troys pov

"It's fine I'm ok just 2 friends that just had a moment just pretend it never happened I will see you later for the party "

Shit troy thought he cousin believe he done that of course he has feelings for Lilly it's just his got a lot of problems in his head he couldn't drag in that with his dad and brother and everything Lilly means everything to him he can't ruin that his had feelings since they were 15 and to be 20 now it's just feelings have got in the way but it's complicated

" you ready " troy didn't say anything

" troy "

" what "

"You ready " nick said

" yeah yeah that's go "

Troy getting in the car closing the Door seeing Lilly sitting on the steps of her house wiping her tears troy looking at her he jusy wanted to get out the car and run to her and tell her that he loved her but he couldn't he was scared to love like he loved his mother but that ended tragic cause of him so he couldn't do it to Lilly ever dispute his feelings towards her