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For those of you who read my other book, yes this is a repost, but since it's Eddie I thought I should repost it here <3
⚠️Warning⚠️: Language, smut
It's always interesting being in a relationship. Especially so when your boyfriend was accused of murder, and you yourself were cursed by a monster by the name of Vecna (the monster who also so happened to be responsible for the murders your boyfriend was accused of).
As you most likely know, if you get cursed by Vecna, the only way of saving you is by playing your favorite song, Lucky for me, I carry a tape player and headphones everywhere I go (just like Max), the tapes containing my favorite music. Also lucky for me, I have a boyfriend who knows me well enough to know my favorite song, out of all the music I listen to, even though I've never told him. Again, just like Max, it just so happens to be 'Running Up That Hill' by Kate Bush. My mother died giving birth to me, and for the time my father was in my life, he always blamed me for her death. Would I switch places with Mama, a mama I've never met, even if it was just so my dad would look at me with love instead of anger?
Yes. A thousand times over. And before I met Eddie, no one ever seemed to look at me with anything deeper than friendship. Not Eddie. People say he's crazy, but if you dig past his rock-hard, tough guy act, you'll find the most loving, kind, caring, and perceptive man you'll ever meet (Oh, but don't tell him I said that- he'll get a big head).
Eddie was the first person I opened up to since my dad left. I mean, yeah, I was friends with Will, Mike, Dustin, and the rest, but Eddie... He's a great listener. He knows when to shut up and when to comfort. He just knows. And that's why I fell in love with him.
After being cursed by and defeating Vecna, I began to notice a change in Eddie. He was never one to be shy when it came to us and PDA but now... He was all over me, touching me, cuddling me, constantly. And he would never, never, let me out of his sight. If I had dinner? He ate with me. If I was reading? He sat next to me, playing with my hair. If I was taking a piss? Yep, right there, averting his eyes but still there.
I was talking to Dustin and Steve when it happened. "No, Robin is way cooler than you, Harrington," I laughed. Dustin nodded. "Oh yeah. Better hair too." "I RESENT THAT," Steve said, wounded, as Dustin and I cracked up. Of course, Eddie came hurrying into the room, having left for about thirty seconds to go get a beer, walked directly over to me and wrapped his arms around me, burying his face in my neck. But I wasn't in the mood. "Not now, Munson," I hissed under my breath, shoving him away. He gave me puppy eyes. "But Y/n, your boyfriend just wants to snuggle his girlfriend. Is that so wrong?" he replied, furrowing his brow. I rolled my eyes. "Um, when my boyfriend hasn't left me alone for two seconds, and is all over me? Is it wrong of me to want a minute to just be myself, without you shoving your way in like you always do?" He looked hurt. "Baby, I just-" "I don't want to hear it, Eddie," I snapped, finally getting fed up and stalking out of the room.
I walked through the woods, breathing the cool, free air. I was actually enjoying myself... until I heard a twig snap. I totally lost it and whirled on my boyfriend. "STOP FOLLOWING ME!" I yelled, furious. He flinched. Hard. I immediately felt guilty and reached a hand towards him. "Ed, hey-" But it was too late. Eddie had turned around and walked away. And... His shoulders were shaking. "Shit, shit, shit," I muttered, hurrying after him.
I caught up and grabbed his hand. "Eddie, wait. Please stop for a second, please." He stopped dead in his tracks, but wouldn't look at me, his chest heaving and his face angled away from me so I couldn't see him. "What?" he choked out, clenching his fists. "Look at me, baby," I said gently, reaching my hand up to his face. He jerked away. "I c-can't... I-i just c-can't," he said, starting to stutter. "I-i-i," he started, struggling to speak. I grabbed his hand. "Eddie, sit down." He did as I said and sat down on the forest floor, his breath coming in harsh gasps.
I knelt down in front of him and took both his hands in mine. "Darling, breathe, just breathe. You're okay, you're fine, you're safe," I soothed, taking one of my hands and running it through his hair, one of his favorite things for me to do. "It's not me I'm worried about," he managed, looking up at me with red-rimmed eyes.
It hit me then. Why he was always around me, why he was so touchy-feely all the time. "You have separation anxiety," I gasped, smacking my forehead. "God, I'm so dense." He nodded, his breathing a little slower. "I never did before. Before the whole Vecna thing. I guess..." He looked away. "I guess I never had anyone I was that scared of losing. Yeah, I'd be hurt, but..." He turned back and looked deep into my eyes. "Y/n, you're my whole world. If I lost you..." He trailed off and looked down at our hands, intertwining our fingers.
I slipped a finger under his chin and pushed his head up to look at me. "Eds, baby, why didn't you tell me?" He looked away again and scoffed. "Because it's stupid. It's stupid. It's stupid that I can't be away from you without anxiety choking me. It's stupid that I can't sleep at night if you're not there. It's stupid that I'm so overprotective of you if I hear the wrong noise I'm about to throw something heavy in that direction. It's all just so stupid!" he yelled, standing up and punching the tree he was leaning against.
I backed away and held my hands out. "Eddie. It's not stupid, at all. You think I like being away from you? You think I like sleeping when I'm without you? There's a reason I ask you to stay every night, and it's not because I'm cold." I took a step closer as he looked down at me. "It's because, Eddie Munson, I love you. And we almost lost each other. I'm not willing to let that happen again."
Eddie grabbed me and held me tighter than he ever had before, burying his face in my hair and taking shuddering breaths. "I love you so fucking much, Y/n, and I can't, I can't lose you." I pulled away and stroked his cheek. "I know, Eds, I know." He leaned into my touch and closed his eyes, trying to control his breathing. "Let's go home," I whispered.
We got back to the trailer (yeah, we live together. So what?) and as soon as we got inside Eddie pushed me up against the wall. I gasped as his lips moved from mine to my neck, sucking and biting down gently in just the right spot. His breathing sped up again, this time for a different reason as I let out a soft moan. "Eds-" "I love you," he whispered in a ragged voice, his hands trailing all over my body as he spoke. I wound my fingers in his hair and pulled, earning a growl from him.
He picked me up under my ass and carried me into the bedroom, dropping me on the bed and climbing on top of me, continuing to kiss my neck as he did.
Now, here's the thing about Eddie. The man likes it rough, and I do mean rough. So when he started gently undressing me, I placed my hand on his cheek and made him look at me. "You don't have to go easy, you know." He looked into my eyes and rested his forehead on mine. "I don't want to fuck you." I hadn't been this confused in a long time. "Then why the hell did you undress me?" He blushed. "No, I mean-" -he looked down and back up- "I don't want to fuck you. I want to make love to you?" The way he ended made it sound like a question. I gasped. "Eddie..." I grabbed his hand. "I would love that," I said softly, smiling.
By now he had gotten all my clothes off and tossed them to the side, so he had started to tug off his shirt when I stopped him. "Let me, love," I whispered, trailing my hands down his chest to the hem of his shirt. I pulled it over his head and kissed him, dropping it over the side of the bed. I trickled my hands down to his belt and gently undid it, pulling it off. He quickly stepped out of his jeans and boxers and hovered over me on the bed. "You sure?" he whispered. I answered with a kiss, and he slowly pushed himself in.
Later, we lay on the bed, trying to catch our breath. I rolled over and looked at him. "Eddie, you're not gonna ever lose me, okay? Please believe me," I mumbled, wrapping my arms around his waist and burying my face in his chest. I could feel him smiling. "I believe you" was the last thing I heard before I fell into a deep sleep.
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