(trigger warning, mentions of PTSD, self harm, anxiety, panic attacks.)
Every story starts off with she wasn't like the others. I believe it's overused.If anyone tells my story, I want the to start with it was a girl, and her journey to a new life. That is, if anyone cares about my life.
If you care who I am, I'm Aryssa White, and this is my story.
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On the first day of eighth grade, I woke up at five o'clock in the morning, only noticing my parents were nowhere to be found.Probably doing something inappropriate.
I always have thoughts running though my head.
I went to find some cereal, but it was all stale, so I decided to have eggs instead.
It was almost six before I finished my food. I rushed upstairs to pack my bag, and grab things I would need to give to the nurse.
I took my PTSD and ADHD medicine before I gathered everything else.
"This is it, Aryssa," I breathed. "Last year of middle school. You will be okay."
Earlier that year, I had been diagnosed with ADHD, PTSD, and anxiety. It sucked because my parents wouldn't get treatment until a few weeks ago when I had an episode of panic attacks and trying to hurt myself. That's when they got me the medication I needed.
Everyday is a struggle, even with the meds.
I went to my stop at 6:50 am because my bus would be there in ten minutes.
I tapped my finger nails again my water bottle as I was getting anxious.
"Where is it?" I sighed as I searched my backpack for a stim toy. "Do I not have it? No, I packed in. I need it right now."
I began to get overwhelmed, but soon found it. I breathed a sigh of relief as the bus pulled up. I stepped on, knowing Ayla would be on already. She waved me over and I sat down.
"Aryssa! How have you been?" She asked.
"We just talked last night," I laughed.
"I know that, I just need to ask you."
"You're funny, I'm fine, I think my parents are doing 'it' again."
"That sucks," she said, "how are you doing with y'know?"
"Meh, I sometimes forget to take the ADHD pills, but I'm getting better at it," I said.
"That sucks, but hey! It will get better."
"Maybe, but not my parents."
"Still doing those things?" Ayla asked.
I nodded, not looking at her.
I still can remember the time I caught them too. I'm still scared. That what triggered the first cut.
Ayla could see the tears forming in my eyes.
"I'm here if you need me, okay?"
I nodded, trying not to cry. She looked at me like she wasn't sure I was going to be okay.
I will be okay.. no I won't...yes you will, no I will not!
Thoughts paced through my head a million miles a second.
Even though it had been forty minutes, it felt like hours.
I knew I would be okay, but I couldn't trust myself. I need to hide all my pointy things. Now.
I just sat there, not saying a word to Ayla or anyone. I just wanted to get the day over. I needed to go somewhere away from my parents.
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Light in the Darkness
Teen FictionAryssa grew up in a non Christian home. Her parents would smoke, swear, drink, and do other things. Aryssa wouldn't do the most appropriate things either but never as bad as her parents. One day, Aryssa's friend Ayla invites her to youth group. Ar...