All, A Secret

Introduction

Welcoming the readers. I'm Arci, a name I picked up among the piles. Not for a certain reason, yet quite certain. When I picked it up, it was because the name spelled my initials. Yep, quite a dull reason, but it gave me a sense of belonging and trueness if that word would even work here. I had no idea that this name that I picked up was such an amazing yet underrated name though. It has a different meaning in each country and religion. But I prefer to say that, this name means- The brightest star. In other words, Sun. Because that's what I want my destiny to be like, maybe. Scorching heat, burning in passion, walking alone while guiding others, successful in life. But who am I to guide, when I am such a small being, who is confused about which path to choose?

I'm a sixteen-year-old devingle. Not a popular student (or, maybe I am). Neither a popular author nor a popular person, in this giant universe. If you ask me, do I dream to be popular? Yes, I do. I wish one day there would be many many readers who become my fans, or rather, my bookish friends. It's my passion. And, I'm not the only one on the list in this regard. However, no matter how much it's my passion, I know it. Something is missing from my life. A goal. A destination that I want my future self to reach. I don't want my old bones in the future to break after working for something I hated! I want to find out my true self, my true feelings. What my future beholds, by helping with the present. And, this is my first step. I don't know how long I will last. But I wish to find out, what my strength is, and what my hidden solace is. I wish to make new friends. Friends who would last forever in my heart. A true one, which I maybe lack a lot. A lover? I don't know. Yes, I maybe have felt love two times. But I have no idea if it was a friendship or love, actually. This is the problem of being a lone wolf. You would have no idea what you actually felt. I do wish there would be someone who would warm my heart up, but I don't know. I don't know what's in my future. Oh yeah, I'm definitely not into commitment time, and nor will it require me to. At least till 30. Double my age, and subtract two.

And this story isn't only me. It's for all the teenagers out there, who are lost in their way. Maybe it's you, maybe it's your daughter or son. Or, maybe someone you know. This phase is tough, not knowing which path to choose, among all those millions of roads. You only need to choose one and become the master of it. But it would be harder if we leave it alone, and then, our adulthood would be the worst of all. Oh yeah, I'm not a good girl, who likes to give others sense. Quarrels are common in my house too, okay? I'm just... I just wish to find out my hidden self, and stop cursing at myself. No one is perfect.

I wasn't expecting any readers when I thought about writing this story, nor when I am writing. But there are many possibilities in life. So, I won't bet it. If you are the one reading this story, my tale, be my bookish friend!

I promise to tell, nothing but the truth. This is the path I'm choosing to discover myself, all hidden underneath me. I wish to learn more about myself, my body, and my friends. Help me make a better self.