THE VIRUS THAT LED ME

DE VIRUS THAT LED ME

My mom was packing her bags outside while arguing with my dad at night, she couldn't take it anymore
"I am done" she kept saying

and my dad kept saying ,
"I am done too woman"

I was so confused watching the both of them arguing at same time, I as a little kid tried to understand the scene but I couldn't

"Mom where are you going?
I said in tears,
but she ignored me and pushed me away, my dad kept throwing the rest of her property she left in the house outside, tearing the beautiful pictures they took together in their early teenage years.

My heart was crushing and I tried to call the cops with the telephone but I heard a voice

"Get away from there kid, if you don't want to be beaten"

my dad said in anger .

My mom finally brought out all her things, but I still couldn't get it, am just a seven year old kid, I have never seen this happen before and even at the house I ran up to my mom at the door, with tears and confusion gazing out of my eyes, she looks at me and tells my dad

"i think you'll be a great parent to befit her,
"her bills and her care", "I am done"

She said all these and dad was just plastering her with curse , my mom kissed my cheeks and gave me the candy and cookie that she ever promised me, without saying anything after staring at me for a while, she left without saying goodbye,I then understood that my parents are now separated.
I kept asking myself questions,
"is she coming back?

"Why did she leave?

"Why did she leave me alone with dad?

"Am I not her daughter?

"Who will take good care of me?

"Will dad buy me the Fancy clothes I want like mom do?

"Who would from now on be taking me to the hair salon?

"Who would provide my needs I need as a girl at my teenage age?

"Who would take me out to my friends birthday party?

"Who would have fun with me at the park during holidays?

"Who would love me the way I deserve?

Of course it's mom that dose all of these.
I burst into tears and went straight up to my room upstairs and destroyed all the toys my mom bought for me, I had this feeling that mom betrayed me she left me all alone with a man who doesn't even know if I exists.

I pulped and plucked out all the stuffing made with my teddy bear and plucked out the eyes in anger and threw them all out of my window.

I wondered how my first day will look like when the sun rises the next morning without mom, but with a horrible dad, I wonder how sad it will be when it is dad picking me up from school the next day. Sitting on my mattress I began to have so many feelings of hatred all at once for my dad

"so all of these happened just in one night?
I asked myself over and over again,

it was like a dream, it all happened like a flash and I never saw it coming. I tried to lick the candy and eat the cookie that I so much long for, but the excitement and joy was not there anymore, instead I decided to give it to anyone at school to the next day, at least to try a little charity at once.

I clinched to my pillow and looked outside the window, I began to remember bed time stories and songs I had with my mom and so many selfies we took together with my cellphone.

I took up my cellphone and swiped down to all the pictures we took together at different occasions even the ones we took when she was at cell for a week, I couldn't even remember the reason she was in cell and who took care of me instead, the consciousness I had for my mom's presence was so unexplainable, I just couldn't believe any longer.