I'm Hurt.. They're Even More Hurt

Chapter Two

[4] Lunch has passed as we line up into a single file line behind Bethany, Briana, and Belle(Belleana).. The most admirable girls in the school .. The Powerpuff girls, but not the saving crime ones, the starting crimes ones. As I walk to the back of the line, whispers I can identify that definitely involved me, "Lilly-Anne's uniform looks like a hurricane washed it" Briana said cackling under her breath, Belleana took milk to give to our class bunny that I noticed was in her hand "Belleana give me that" Bethany said snatching it out of Belleana hand quick before I walked past. Bethany opened the milk and spilled it onto my red uniform, I didn't move .. I didn't react.. I didn't even walk right past, I looked at her and smiled while the class was laughing .. and the memory ends there.

[5] I am 12 years old, I can't remember much, don't even know what year I'm born .. Mom says I have Alzheimer's but I'm 12 .. how is that possible? Dad says schizophrenia but that's impossible .. is it? I'm writing this because I've killed somebody I've killed.. All three. I've hurt them. and it hasn't stopped so far not yet. I didn't mean to, it wasn't even an intention so I thought.. I just had enough. the harassment, bullying, yelling, manipulation, and sadness. I just had enough, my sanity had enough. Mother would be destroyed if she heard her daughter killed her bullies to save her life but since you know, let me share that memory.

[6] Thursday, February,23,$%&!"Lilly-Anne, I'm tired of repeating myself .." Yelled mother, "I'm not going to help you cook dinner, I don't wanna be a worker in this house.. You guys don't even care for me" I yelled back running out of breath with a feeling of adrenaline rushing through my blood as this being the first time I'd ever yelled at someone .. not just someone, my mom. I realize that feeling of vulnerability I swore I would stay away from. I rush out of the house getting the feeling of the blizzard feeling air on my arms as I wore a shoulder-length shirt and hammy-down biker shorts. As I run down to Clinton St. I see them. My troubled thoughts. My enemies. At that moment my vulnerability felt like power. "Look belle," Bethany said "Lilly-Anne .. finally losing that weight that needed to be lost " Bethany stated staring at me like I was a horse out in the street. "I don't know why she dare come 10 ft near us," Belle said rolling her eyes. "Guess I have to make her remember 3rd grade," Bethany said, as I overheard her I run faster .. my mistake for walking past dirty wing-wormed water, belle pushed me, pushed me so hard my face fell in the puddle, pushed me so hard that I took the broken metal that was pierced into my skin and got up ."Lilly-Anne .. are you gonna cry?" Whined Belleana. I ran till my calves start aching and my heels felt numb, and they followed "Lilly-Anne " Yelled Bethany "Mommy isn't gonna follow you into the woods.. Don't pee your pants again" Bethany echoed into the woods. I kept on running, pacing forward into the woods. To realize. I've been cornered 

[7] "Funny how you run into the woods like we wouldn't catch you," Bethany said hysterically . see Briana walking into the woods from the corner of my eyes , I remember the bloody metal shard that got pierced into my hand .. or was it glass? I took the shard and I did the unthinkable, Something I never knew would haunt me till now . but I'm getting into that . I took the metal shard and I walk to Briana making her believe that i was going to her for help . Everything was so quick I remember it was me stabbing her until she fell .. I covered her mouth being that no one would see her anyways cause she was shorter than me and smaller too . Once she fell. I couldn't stop . I hear footsteps behind me forgetting that Bethany and Belleana were still there. And i go for them next .. The feeling of power was demonstrated in my attacks, I felt I got my revenge in the way I needed it, and I grew more excitement for it . 

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