Giving up

I'm Olivia

Im Olivia, my mom and dad have gotten a divorce. He left and wanted nothing to do with me, he got the divorce and left the state. I've never seen him ever since that day, before that happened I was happy. My mom was happy everything was going amazing, god I miss those days. My moms heart was shattered into pieces, she found out he was cheating on her. And when she confronted him he got the divorce papers and left, she hasn't been the same ever since. And I highly doubt she will ever be the same, she found many boyfriends but they only lasted a month or two. Then she found Jake, the worst of all of them. He's an alcoholic and extremely aggressive, when he's drunk he gets very nasty. He takes all of his anger out on me, he'll leave he bruised and bleeding. My mom couldn't care less, before my dad left she wouldn't have let anyone lay a finger on me. But now she'll even hit me to, like I said she hasn't been the same. All they ever do know is sit and drink, watch tv, and fight with each other. I don't care about anything or anyone, I just want to get out of this house. I want everything to go back to the way it was. I hate going to school because I get bullied for my clothes and anything they can find.

It's 7:45 am and the bus comes at 8:00, Jake and my mom are screaming at each other. As usual, I start walking out the door to the bus stop. I have a stupid paper to write today, my teachers didn't tell me what the paper will be about. But I know I have to write something and I don't want to, I'm lost thinking about that paper I have to do when the bus pulls up. I get on the bus, as soon as I walk into that bus I have people making comments about the way I look and the way I walk.

Im so done at this point, I sit down and think of ways to self harm. I hate every second of my life, I'm ready to end it at any moment.

The bus stops at the school and I get out and walk to class.

It's now around 3:00 im walking into my last class, it's the class that im dreading the most. Its the class that I have to write that stupid paper, but I am curious about what the paper will be about. I sit down without people trying to trip me, that's weird. 5 minutes later the teacher starts talking, I'm not paying attention until she claps her hands. I wasn't expecting her to do that so it scares me, she says "today you will be writing a paper about Boy Bands. You have 3 bands to choose from, BTS, Jonas Brothers, or One Direction. Everyone picked the first two options, so I picked One Direction. I don't care about boy bands so I wasn't excited for this, little did I know this assignment would change my life. But we were allowed to use are phones to google about the bands, so I looked up One Direction members. And I found out that there are 5 boys, Louis Tomlinson, Harry Styles, Liam Payne, Zayn Malik, and Niall Horan. Im not going to lie, the boys were pretty cute from the pictures I saw.

As I did some research the time stared to pass by really fast, I can't believe I was actually enjoying this. Before I know it I have written two whole pages about them, I was basically drooling over them.

I was having fun! But the bell rang and scared me, it was time for me to go home. On the bus I started listening to What Makes you beautiful, Live While We're Young, and The best song ever. Im obsessed with them, I never expected to like a band. But something about them was... well, magical.