Feeling numb and empty, thinking if it is already enough. Angel is looking for more, hoping for more. Tiring herself just to accomplish her tasks.
Forgetting to eat on time and choosing to study more just to get the academic validation that she needed. Being a consistent achiever is hard, knowing that she needs to sacrifice her health just to meet her own expectations. Asking herself if she's doing it right, doubting herself.
Letting herself drown in her own thoughts. "What if I fail? What if I get low grades?" those are some of the questios she kept thinking about.
Feeling frustrated, she throws her papers on the floor and cry endlessly. No one's pressuring her but herself, But what she is afraid of is the reaction from her parents, a silent treatment. She hated it but she just let it go. Until the first quarter is done and her some saw her grade.
She asked her why did she receive that kind of grade. 84... She didn't want to get that anymore, so she tried to push herself to the limits until she couldn't do it anymore, she bursted out. My love is so tired from reaching her own expectations just to prove to herself that she is worthy enough. She looked at nowhere not knowing what to do next, she feel so lost and empty. She curled up and hug her knees feeling the cold weather as she knows that she is alone and
have nothing to lean on but herself. She have friends but she doesn't want to bother them as she knows that they are also struggling from their own battle.
Minutes have passed and her phone light up as sign that someone messaged her, "You are doing great, don't forget to rest to. I love you, Angel baby" she bursted into tears as read the message. That what she needs right now, assurance. Assurance that she is doing great and she deserves some rest too.
