TW• contains references to depression•
If only my mum knew, that I sit up in my room poring my eyes out every night, that I don't think I'm good enough.
if only my mum knew that every time I am alone, I start hearing all my constant thoughts.
If only my mum knew the reason for why I acted up all the time, why I have a wall up, stopping from letting people in.
If only my mum knew how many times I've tried to and it all because It was difficult.
If only my mum knew how I really left, and why I always am alone. She'd be devastated and disappointed with me. She's think that's everything was her fault, that how come she never noticed this and how she just let it slip by.
If my attempts worked, and my mum found me, she's be pouring her eyes out because she's lost her daughter. She would have found all my scars and how deep they were and think 'why did I let this happen'.
