ONE SHOT - The Heartfelt Affair - Conover Series 2

Frederick Royce Mavros & Esmeralda Louise Guadarrama

"Gwapo ka kaso babaero." I chuckled after saying that. Hindi niya talaga maiaalis sa akin iyon.

He can't do anything to mend that because I was traumatized by him and his affairs. A pretty sorry won't do it just like that.

"It's in the past now, Louise. I'm sorry." Aniya.

"Stop saying you're sorry when it isn't genuine enough to mend this." Itinuro ko ang puso kong warak na warak pa rin hanggang ngayon.

"It's a sincere apology, Louise, please." Kita ko sa mga mata niya ang sinceridad pero hindi ko iyon pinatulan.

I don't want to see any emotion in his eyes. Mas lalo akong nandidiri sa kanya.

"I have loved you for so many years, Royce. And I think it's time to stop. Let's divorce." Sabi ko habang nakapikit ang mga mata, naramdaman ko na ikinabigla niya iyon.

"No, no please, Louise, I know that this is all my fault but I promise you, I would do anything to have you back. Just don't divorce me, Louise." Pagmamakaawa nito sa akin. He held my hand then pressed his lips on it.

"I'm tired of it all, Frederick Royce. Alam mo kung gaano ako nasaktan. At alam mo sa sarili mong hindi ka titigil kahit pa humingi ka ng ilang daang patawad sa akin. You'll just do it again and again and again. At ayokong masaktang muli sa paulit ulit mong panloloko... It's better if we parted ways." Pangungumbinsi ko sa kanya.

Pagod na pagod na ako. Sa kakaluha dahil sa sakit na inihatid nya sa puso ko. Dahil sa mga panloloko niya sa akin. Dahil sa paulit ulit niyang patawad.

I'm getting tired of everything, sobrang sakit na ng puso ko.

Binawi ko ang kamay ko sa kanyang pagkakahawak at tumayo na. I want to get out of here as fast as I can. Hindi ko na gustong bumalik muli rito.

"Louise!" Sigaw niya sa akin pero hindi ako tumigil. I kept on running.

"Please, Louise!" Sigaw niyang muli pero hindi ko na siya pinakinggan pa.

I was close to the door when he grabbed my arm.

"I have loved you genuinely, Esmeralda Louise." He said straightly. I didn't see any emotions in his eyes.

"How could you possibly love me then fuck other women?! You don't love me Royce. You're just saying that out of fear. You're afraid to lose me because all you have is me to support you in every way possible! At ayokong maging ganun lang sayo. I'm so tired, Royce. Please, let me go." Paos na ang boses ko.

I let my tears flow. Hindi ko na mapigilan ang mga luhang dumausdos sa pisngi ko. I can't take the pain anymore.

He hugged me, at mas lalo lang akong naiyak. I let all my sorrows, pain go. Sobrang sakit na.

"Please, let me go, Royce." Mga katagang paulit ulit kong sinasabi habang hinahayaang lumabas ang mga luhang pinipigilan ko kanina.

I felt his hand caress my back, and his lips kissed the top of my head. Unti unting nawala ang kamay niya sa likod ko.

"Hush now, Louise. Sorry won't be enough to mend you, I know. I understand you-" He stated pero pinutol ko iyon.

"How can you understand me, Royce? You don't know the feeling you put me through." Balik ko sa kanya habang umiiyak pa rin.

"I know and I'm really sorry for every pain it caused you. I understand you now, Louise. So, I've decided... to let you go. That's what you want, right?" He said, putting a fake smile while stuttering to the last two sentences.

I nodded as an answer. Alam kong may parte sa aking isip na pagsisisihan ang desisyon ko pero ito ang mas makakabuti sa amin, sa akin.

"Talk to me, Louise. This is hard for me but I want to hear you agreeing to this." Sabi niya kaya sinunod ko.

"I want you to let me go, Royce." Sabi ko habang pinipigilang mautal.

"Okay, then I'm setting you free. And I want you to be happy with the man who can deeply love you as much as you do to him. Huh, Louise, please do that." Sabi pa niya ng pabiro pero mas lalo lang akong naiyak.

I tried to stop my tears from flowing pero mas lalong bumuhos ang luha ko.

"Have your own happiness, love yourself fully now, mahal. I love you here and in every universe. Kahit mahirap iyong paniwalaan." Bulong niya sa akin saka dinampian ng halik ang gilid ng mata ko.

Unti unting nawala ang presensya niya at bumalik ako sa kasalukuyan.

Here I am, standing in his graveyard. I placed the flowers beside his tomb. I also put a letter to the flower, hoping that he would read it in heaven.

"Nanay Esme, tara na po?" Tanong ng batang katabi ko.

"Just give Nanay Esme time, anak. Nagdadasal pa ang Nanay para sa iyong Tatay Roy." Sabi naman ng katabi ko sa kabilang gilid.

He's my son from Gregorio Andrade, ang pangalawa at huling asawa ko. Alam rin ng anak ko ang buong kwento namin ni Royce, my one and greatest love.

Matapos kong magdasal at magpasalamat ay nilisan na namin ang sementeryo.

I will never ever forget him, even in my next life.

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