‧₊˚✧ __JAKES POV!__ ‧₊˚✧
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TW: abuse, blood, noises in head (that may b scary to people jus in case)
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I went into my room, started to do my sculpture then my dad walked in. His name is Lukas Wheeler, ever since my mom died he blamed me for her death. And sometimes, I think to myself maybe it is.
"What are you doing?" My dad says. He looked very drunk so I tried to be careful with the words I say and act nice. "Just doing another sculpture." I say, laughing sarcastically. I then looked down and saw a beer in his right hand, I was scared he might hit me again. I don't know if we have any more makeup for me to cover up. "What I tell you about those stupid dolls!?? You're not going to be anything in life by doing those!" He says than left the room then comes back with a bat. I was terrified. But I barely calmed down cause he pushed me out of the way and started to reck my sculpture. I tried to get him to stop but he kept on going and when I tried to take the bat he hit me which made me move. My nose started to bleed. I was crying which was bad. He then stopped and yelled at me for crying and said "NO MORE DOLLS, JAKE." Then walked out the door then shut it. I was trying to hold in my tears screaming at myself.
Don't cry, Don't cry, Don't cry.
Just cry.
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I let go.
I was sobbing very badly. I thought to myself 'I'm so weak and soft. Now I know why people call me a fag. I'm pathetic. I'm a freak.' For an hour I stopped then went to the bathroom to fix myself up. My eyes were puffy and I had bags. I pinched my nose then grabbed a wet tissue to clean the blood off. I took a shower then went back into my room looking at my ruined sculpture. I sighed and went to bed. 'I'm glad it's all over.'
The Next Day.
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I woke up, feeling all gross inside. I got up and did what every morning person does.
I went outside waiting for my bus then it got here. I left my chucky doll cause I didn't want people to know about him. I would definitely get bullied for that. I walked into the bus and Oliver, this popular jackass
Threw boxers at my face. I was pissed so I sat down where I normally sit. Behind my crush!!
His name is Devon Evans. He does a podcast, so his popular too. His the son of a detective and he likes read crime and mystery documentary's. Got it from his mother I guess. I see him reading a crime magazine then I get to see my crush perfectly shaped beautiful side profile. He looked amazingly hot. I was smiling that I never could. His the reason why I keep getting back up. He may doesn't know that I even exist, but I love him. Then it came. My cousin. Junior Wheeler. He is also a jackass, but not worse. His my cousin so I should expect insults and rude shit towards him. But ever since his new spoiled brat rich a $1 daughter of the mayor girlfriend came, he changed. His like 10x an asshole now! I don't care, but I just hate him being best friends with my Bo- I MEAN CRUSH. When I saw him sit besides him my smile faded. So I just looked at my window the whole ride.
At School.
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I got to school and went to my locker until I tripped on a note someone threw at me. I heard 2 girls laughing and it was Lexy Cross and her minion. "What the fuck!?" I blurted out, didn't care if any teachers were near. "Aww are you mad?~" She says then walks to the cafeteria. God I hate her so much. I got up and picked up the note and read "Faggot!" I was mad but knew she was right so I just crumbled it up and kick it next to a trash can. I opened my locker and put my things and backpack in it. I began to walk into the cafeteria.
Of course, I sat alone but this is the day when I saw him come to ME. The day when I had butterflies and was panicking inside. Devon Evans, walked to MY table. I flinched cause of the table move hoping he didn't saw that, but he did. "Oh, I'm sorry I didn't mean to scare you. I just wanna ask if I can sit here?" He said. I HAD TO BE DREAMING. My popular crush
I'm dreaming no fucking way!!
You're not dreaming stupid.
OWMRRIDNXNXKOSHEDMZKAAAAAA
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"U-Uhm yea of-of course!!" I said stuttering cause I was talking too fast immediately taking my earbuds off.
Gosh, I'm acting like a idiot!! "Thanks!" He says smiling. IT WAS THE CUTEST SMILE EVER. OFOFMFMOFOPUDHHSSBAAAAAAAAAAAAA. He asked me what I was listening too and I replied with a "Oh, nothing." lying cause I was actually listening to his podcast. I was blushing extremely hard after he says "It's okay, I know you were listening to my podcast." He could tell I was obviously flustered and that I was panicking so he started to laugh. It was adorable and relaxing to hear him laugh. Makes me happy.
We heard a thud behind us and turned around and we seen Lexy standing on her table yelling at everyone to get her attention. "I just wanna let the FAG express himself. Go ahead Jake, tell everyone how much a gay FREAK you are?" All eyes were on me. They were disgusting and uninterested looks. Of course she had to say my secret out loud. There was yelling and throwing food at me. But I didn't care, I immediately looked at Devon and I was prepared for all the insults and that he was going to leave me. I was terrified, that my crush was going to hate me. But..
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He didn't?
"D-Devon Please I-I am so sorry! Please don't hate me-" I tried to finish but he cuts me off saying
"Hate you? Why would I hate you Jake? The person that I should hate is Lexy. She shouldn't have done that! Secret or not I am very sorry. Are you okay?" He seemed actually concerned about me. But I had to ruin it with my stupid weak self. I started to cry and everyone was laughing at me. Devon looked mad but I got up and ran to the bathroom.
To be continued.
love -
latavia (luh-ta-v-uh)
