So Close Yet So Far

Chapter 16

Dahan dahan kong nilapit ang mukha ko sakanya.

I kissed him with different intensity that I have been giving him for the past month.

I kissed him sensually, hinalikan ko siya na parang may pinapahiwatig.

But he didn't responds, he stayed stayed still pero hindi niya ako tinulak.

Tulad ng mga nakaraan. I kiss him while he stay still, there are some instances that he responds back but only for a short time at marahas itong lumalayo at mukhang hirap na.

I don't know what's stopping him but whatever it is all I want is his lips back.

"Hugo please respond." Sabi ko tsaka ko hinawakan ang labi nito at hinimas.

"Please." Ulit ko habang patuloy na dinadampian siya ng ng mararahan na halik.

"I want you to kiss me Hugo." Pagmamakaawa ko.

The great Priscilla Innana Martinez Lopez is desperately begging for a kiss from her husband.

If I look back in time I would never imagine that this will ever happen, the boys are the one begging for my kiss but look at me now.

Normally I would pity myself but this time around is different, I have intention and responsibility to make and this is for the sake of our marriage.

He gently pulled me away from him stopping me. Sobrang haran nito that it confuses me. Nasasaktan ako tuwing ginagawa niya ito sakin, nilalayo ako na para bang isa itong pagkakamali tuwing napakalapit ko sa kanya.

I wonder if his reason is his ex girlfriend. It probably us but I am just manipulating myself that it is not.

Asawa niya ako pero hindi niya ako tinuturing na asawa. He is a good husband yes, a gentleman. But we don't fuck like what the normal married couples do.

Yun ang kulang sa relasyon namin at pagmamahalan. The love part is given, this is not a marriage out of love but we respect and appreciate each other.

But the sex part is not, I don't know how he could last months without it. I know men have needs.

Makes me wonder if he is doing it with other women but I know he doesn't. He has honor.

Tumingin siya sa akin na para bang nahihirapan na siya.

"I can't." Maiksi nitong sabi.

"Why?" Tanong ko umaasa ako na may makukuha akong sagot sa kanya para mas malinawan ako.

I want him to tell me what's stopping him, how could he resist me like this.

Pero nanatili itong tahamik.

"Hugo I said why?" Tanong ko ulit.

"I'm sorry Priscilla. This is not right" Tanging sabi nito.

What does he mean it is not right. It is very normal, what's not normal is not doing it after month of being married.

I don't know why pero nasaktan ako sa paghingi niya ng tawad. Parang pinamukha niya sa akin na ayaw niya sa sitwasyon namin ngayun. And that he doesn't want to do it with me.

Maybe I didn't make the cut of girls he like to fuck, He has long list of hot girls, Gwendolyn being one of them. The model who was named as one of the prettiest face by one of the famous magazine in Los Angeles.

Ever since I tried to seduce him, I felt really insecure. Kahit naman hindi dapat.

I was offered a lot of times by agency to be a part of their growing family when they scout me in a public place.