When I was still a teenager I always say that I wanted to die kapag tumungtong na ako ng 20's. I always joke that around coz why not ? I'm still as high as fck becase I know I have all the time I needed in my hands. Dreams like I can rule the world, that I can do incredible things just wait... Having dreams when we're still young , doing stupid things, fcked up.. So young-- memories. That time I feel like I know everything, I planned everything accordingly. I'll graduate, get a job with a high paying salary and be married atleast by the age of 25. I still vividly remember how dreamer I was, young blood really kicks in. Then years, years, and years gone by then suddenly it's 2022, I'm 26. Just 26. Nothing more. And now I know why I'm so scared of being 20. Not because I'm scared of getting older but I'm scared being nothing by the time I passed 20's. Kaya pala-- yun pala yun. And that hit me. I'm so scared to be disappointed by myself. Nothing's more embarrassing than that. When you feel humiliated all by yourself. Just you. It rots the hell out of you. Akala ko exciting part, exhausting part pala. Wala lang, let's get this all together. That the Reminder I put on the cover would be a guide to us on how Adulting really is , that life is unfair, It was never a race. It doesn't have set of rules, wlang guidelines on how to be a successful tita of manila. Walang itinerary pano ba makakapunta. It is a full blown biglaang journey, or maybe not? But for me it is. Yung Tipong natutuloy kahit ayaw mo kasi biglaan, biglang pinilit kang sumama haha. It is a long tiring journey that If you don't appreciate every scenery passing through your window car you'll get impatient. Just like when you climb a mountain kung di mo lilibangin ang sarili mo sa trail you'll just continuously ask the tour guide kung malayo pa ba. Asking nonsense question drains energy. That's why you have to keep in your mind na malapit na, na 5 minutes na lang nasa peak ka na hehe. Dapat Lahat palaban. Grabeng Adulting yan, ganito pala galawan, ang sikip, ang sakit ang hirap. Pero malay natin in the coming years all that we've prayed and wished for eh magkatotoo. That the PEAK we wanted to see, the destination we wanted to enjoy, the dreams that lost years ago find its way back home. The farthest tourist attraction it is the more meaningful and beautiful it is. Okay nonsense. Babyeee Buzz buzz buzz...
