Walking with insecurity (Unsecured Series #1)

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I suddenly remember, what date is right now. August 17. Kailangan kong bumisita sa tindahan nila ngayon, baka bumalik na sya. babalik sya.

"Bel? nakatunganga ka na naman, what's on your head?" Lear said. dahil don inagaw ni lear ang atensyon ng dalawa at biglang bumaling sakin na para bang may impormasyon akong dala.

I chuckled a little. "Ah wala, may iniisip lang."

Dali dali akong umuwi, dahilan para ma bahala sila saken, they think i am acting weird.

I immediately entered the car while panting, i really ran from school to the parking lot. excited akong umuwi.

Dad kissed my cheek "Oh dear, you're panting. Why are you running?" he confusedly said.

"Excited lang ako umuwi dad" i lied.

Nang makarating kami sa bahay agad akong umakyat sa kwarto at nag bihis ng pambahay, tinawag din nako ni mama para kumain. but i refused, i need to go there immediately.

Papunta nako sa lumang tindahan nila, nang matanaw ko ang tindahan sobrang nasiyahan ako. even i know na 80% possiblity na wala pa rin sya.
pagkasok ko roon ay.....biglang bumuhos ang luha ko. wala talaga, wala sya. ilang taon nako nag hintay ah? kala ko ba babalik sya. umiyak ako habang pauwi, nag kulong ako sa kwarto at nawalan ng gana na umasa. i gave up on that day.

Hanggang sa gumraduate ako nang Elementary my family was proud of me, even my friends, i was the class valedictorian. i am a competitive student, that i end up doubting my self for sometimes mistakes. and alam kong di dapat ako ganyan, Lear was our class salutatorian, yes my bestfriend.

"Where school do you want in your high school, anak?" mom said.

"Dito nalang din ma, mukhang dito lang din naman yung mga kaibigan ko." i lied, gusto ko dito kase kahit bigo ako nang ilang taon. i want to see him parin.

Gumising nalang ako nang isang araw ng maaga, it was my first day of school as a high school student. dali dali akong kumilos, i'd received some text messages from my friends, nasa school nadaw sila.

"Ma? asan si papa? pahatid nako ma" i said shouting.

Mom kissed me before leaving, sumakay na kami ni papa sa sasakyan, at tumlak papuntang school. agad kong hinanap ang mga kaibigan ko, nang mahanap ko sila kay sabay na kaming pumasok.

"Hoy bel, stop your toxic traits, education is not a competition." lear said while we are walking.

"Try ko ngayon maging soft girl sa school na medjo introvert, uso yan ngayon eh." i said while imagining myself.

"Anong soft girl teh? soft girl kaba tignan?" leslie said while chuckling.

"Shane? bat di ka nagsasalita? are u okay?" i asked, namataan ko lang na parang ang tahimik nya this day.

"Ah oo okay lang ako, medjo kinakabahan lang sa first day." tumango tango naman kami sa sinabi niya.

Nang makapasok kami ay iisa kami ng row, may limang seats sa isang row. apat lang kami so may bakante sa left side ko.

"Okay class, sit down. As i read your name, say present." ma'am said as she sat.

"Hi is anyone sitting here?" someone asked me.

He looks familiar. wait. where did i met him?

"Ah wala, upo ka na diyan, kunin mo ang bag ng inggrata." sabi ni Lear, malandi ka lang teh kaya ka pumayag.

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I massage my temple as i'm trying to think where i met this guy, he's really familiar to me. Meron syang mga pasa sa paa, but that is not my least of my concern.