Idiot (discontinued)

2

"Niki!" I shouted as ran down the stairs. "Hi Tommy" Niki said softly and accepted my hug. As we pulled away Dream stood beside us looking slightly in shock. He quickly got over it as soon as he realised we noticed it. I just shook it of, he was probably confused because he hadn't seen us talking much. "Well, then since your here Tommy please show Niki around. Her room is right beside Wilbur's" Dream said to me as I smiled and nodded. "Okay!" Was that too loud? "Awesome, I'm gonna go make dinner." Dream exclaimed. Okay I think it's fine... I then walked up the stairs Niki right behind me holding her suitcase. "Here's your room" I said with a big smile on my face as I opened the door. Her room looked just like mine but inverted so the two doors were on the left wall not the right. As it was in my room. "Okay!" She said happily as she dragged her suitcase. "I'll leave you time to explore the rest. And make yourself at home" I said happily. "Thanks Tommy, also if you ever need to talk about anything or just need a distraction please come to me?" She said with a little smile but some slight concern in her eyes. "I'll make sure" I said slightly dropping my smile and leaving closing the door after me. I really hate when people bring things like that up when I'm genuinely having a good time. I'm just trying to have a good time for once. And they always have to destroy it. I dropped my smile as soon as I entered my room, or the little smile I had left. I landed on my bed as my thoughts started running trough my head. There will be a lot of people, it's fine just fine we're gonna be okay. Plus we have our own room to go to if it's too much. But what if they find out, what if they judge us? It will be fine, we just need to wing it and it goes how it goes. "Tommy" I heard as I was being shuck lightly. "Huh, oh hi" I said as I noticed it was Wilbur. "It's dinner, you okay you seemed zoned out?" Wilbur stated as I stood up and we both walked out. "Yeah, I'm fine" I lied, well kinda but still also not. I'm not sure. "Okay." Wilbur said sounding far from convinced but decided to quickly drop it. We both arrived at the table to find Niki, Dream and Sapnap. All around the table enjoying their food. "Hello" Dream said in-between taking bites of his taco. I sat down beside Niki and picked up a tortilla bread. Then I put some meat sauce (that feels wrong but it's what google translate says lmao if there's some poor translations in this book I'm not English it's not my native language, you can't blame me)  in the middle decorating with stripped cheese and corn. And to top it all of some smashed tortilla chips. I rolled it all up and started eating. Conversations broke out around the table. It was nice not having to worry about there being many people there just chilling with a few friends I liked it a lot better enjoy it while I have it. After awhile I left the table and put my dish on the counter. I walked away from the table slipping a small 'thank you' as I left for the living room. I put stranger things on since I hadn't watched a lot of it. I were having trouble getting trough it somehow it's good I just lose concentration after awhile. It happeneds quiet a lot I've noticed but I can never really tell why. It's only for some things sometimes I struggle getting trough vods. I don't really know why. I watched 2 more episodes before I walked upstairs.

Timeskip

"Good morning!" I was being slightly shaken. "Wtf-? oh good morning" I groaned making Niki laugh. "Come one wake up" she said as she left me alone in my room. "Breakfast ready in 10!" I heard from the hallway. I rolled around in bed for 5 minutes because who actually feels like getting up in the morning especially when you regretted waking up in the first place. So I finally managed to get out of bed after like 7 minutes of being on my phone surprised it wasn't more I got some clothes on. I went with a pair of sweat shorts and my iconic red and white t-shirt. Nothing special because who cares, and then I went into my bathroom. I ran the water and put my hands in the water. I then combed trough my hair with my hands to make it a bit less like the home of a fucking crow. And then I walked downstairs. "Good morning Tommy" Dream said as I entered the kitchen. "Morning" I said rubbing my eyes. Dream were finishing the breakfast, Sapnap was at the table on his phone. And Wilbur and Niki no where to be found. I sat down at the table getting a quick good morning from Sapnap. I started conversation with Dream talking about his new video idea. "Oh and Tommy could you go get Niki and Wilbur their in the living room?" Dream asked as he put the breakfast at the table. I nodded and stood up, speed walking out the kitchen for some weird reason. I found Niki and Wilbur hanging out in the living room watching some weird YouTube video. "Breakfast's ready." I said and walked out of there. Nothing to special happened during breakfast. So I left as soon as I ate up. I walked to my room after putting my dish on the counters and saying thank you. I walked into my room and sort of hung out there for a while until i heard a knock on the door. "Yo, Tommy we're picking up Phil, George and Tubbo from the airport wanna come?" Sapnap asked from behind my door. "Nah, I need to do something" I lied I didn't need to do something I just don't feel like going outside. "Okay, We'll be back sometimes" Sapnap said and then left. I went back to laying on my bed on my phone mindlessly scrolling on Instagram. After what felt like 10 minutes which were in reality two hours I heard the door open. "Oh their here" I noted to myself for some reason. And then continued to lay in my bed. I should have been more excited to see them than this to be honest I just feel numb.

Bad friend

Idiot

I suddenly felt a weight on me to notice Tubbo who had jumped onto me. "Oh hi" I said excitedly hugging him. "Hi!" Tubbo said shaking out of excitement. After that I got up and gave Tubbo an actual hug. "Nice to see you man!" I said happily. Tubbo smiled more at this somehow I don't know how it works but sure. Then we both walked downstairs to find Phil and George talking to Dream and Wilbur. "Phiiil!" I shouted excitedly interrupting everyone. I sprinted downstairs and hugged him. Making everyone go into a fit of laughter, as-well as me. "Hi mate" Phil said as we both let go. I quickly hugged George trying to avoid the situation of Dream and Sapnap at the airport making Wilbur and Dream start wheezing. After that I led them to their room, George's were in the end of the hallway next to Dreams and Phil's in the second door from me. Gosh we should really get signs for this. I went into my own room after that to take a shower. Haven't done that in awhile. After my shower I put a white t-shirt with a red long sleeved under. And some simple black pants to match it all up. I chilled in my room for awhile before I heard a knock on my door rudely interrupting my thoughts. "What's up?" I asked. "We're going shopping wanna come?" Phil asked. I hesitated for a little bit. "Sure" I answered and got up. "You okay mate?" Phil asked as I left my room. "Yeah no just fine" I answered as we entered the hallway. "Okayyy, I'm not pushing it out but if somethings wrong please talk to someone" Phil stated sounding quiet worried. They know... fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck. "Thank you" I said trying to calm myself.

Have some blue Tommy, have some blue.

Because it's fine, everything is within my calculations... mhm it's all gonna be fine...

The audios started playing in my head calming me. Helping my anxiety lay off. I knew a lot of ways to help me calm down I just don't always remember them. And then everything comes back again over and over again I just want it all to stop.

Word count: 1500

A/N: I don't know what I think about this one but I want to update this book so have a not to good chapter sorry :/