One Shot

Knock Knock

Yey! Today is the day! 2nd anniversay na namin ng taong mahal ko at kasalukuyan akong naghihintay kay Zach na dumating sa aming condo. Yes sa aming condo since nag live-in na kami simula ng mawala ang aking pinakamamahal na ina.

My mom was died due to heart attack in front of me while the so called "cult" whose known at knocking each houses before, killing whoever opened the door and it was unfortunate that they choose to knock in our door harshly and repeatedly that night. I was very panicked and devastated at that time and in that night I was too late...I was too late to know that my mom has a heart disease. That night was the worst night of my life that I don't want to remember anymore.

After that incident, I felt like my world is falling apart, I was wrecked, I was depressed, and I even blame myself for what happened to my mom. There are so many what if's circulating inside my mind that time like, what if I have known about my mom's condition sooner...what if I was brave enough to face whoever that "cult" who was knocking is...what if.

But...

This wrecked girl found the light I'm longing for as I meet Zach whom make me feel the warmth, and what the feeling of love is.

Dingdong!

I suddenly jumped in joy and excitement when finally dumating na si Zach kaya dali-dali kong inayos ang sarili ko habang naka upo ako dito sa dinning area. I am very sure na masusurprise siya sa inihanda kong surpresa.

As he open the light here in the dinning area, he was so shock and I see how happy he is as he look at my prepared candlelight dinner for the two of us. I cooked adobo and sinigang na baboy which are his favorite, I also baked 2 layered of blueberry cheese cake...our favorite. I immediately stood up para salubungin siya sa bukana ng dinning area.

"Happy 2nd anniversay love," I said before I kiss his lips.

"Thank you so much love. Happy anniversary," he happily said before he kissed my forehead and pulled my waist to hug me so I hugged him back tightly.

"I should be the one to say thank you. Thank you my love for being the light in my darkness, for being here with me since my mom died. Thank you love...I love you," I said wholeheartedly while my tears are falling and buried my face in his chest. I felt him stiffed a bit kaya tiningala ko siya ng may pagtataka. "Ok ka lang love?" I asked.

Ngimiti lang siya ng pilit sa akin pero bakas sa mga mata niya na may bumabagabag sa kaniya pero pinilit niya pa ring ngumiti sa akin habang pinupunasan niya ang luha sa aking mga mata. Napansin ko rin na everytime I say thank you he always give me the same reaction, kung dati binabaliwala ko lang yun pero ngayon parang hindi ko na kayang baliwalain pa kaya tatanungin ko nalang siya mamaya.

"Gutom ka na ba love? Kain na muna tayo, lalamig na ang mga pagkain paborito mo pa naman," I said while slightly pulled him to sit but he slowly pulled my hand away which made my smile fade.

"Why love?" I painfully asked. Napahilamos siya sa kaniyang mukha bago umiiyak na lumubog sa sahig kaya agad ko siyang nilapitan upang yakapin.

"What is it love? Shhh stop crying, you can tell me, what's going on?" Ang sakit, sobrang sakit na makita mong umiiyak ang taong mahal mo.

"Hindi ko na kaya love, I'm sorry...I'm so...sorry," patuloy pa rin siyang humahagulhol kaya mas hinigpitan ko pa lalo ang yakap ko sa kaniya habang hinahagod ko ang kaniyang likod.

"Hush now love, tell me love...please what's going on? Why are you apologizing hmmm?" I slowly copped his face up gently kaya nagtama aming mga mata at mababakas ang matinding pagsisisi niya na siyang ipinagtaka ko.

"I'm so sorry love. The more time I spend loving you...unti-unti akong kinakain ng guilt love. Sorry...sorry talaga love hindi ko alam...hindi...hindi ko sinasadya. Sobrang nagsisi ako...sobra kaya sorry Chelsea...sorry," he hold my hands then hugged me tightly, afraid that I'll leave him. He continue mumbling apologies na hindi ko maintindihan kung para saan.

"Please tell me love, why are you saying sorry love hmmm?" I asked him again. I don't want to see him like this because he remind me of my old self.

"Ano ba Zach, tell me!" I even grab his left arm and gently shake him.

"That night...that night you...and your mom...I am sorry...about the knock, it was me...the dare...I'm sorry love," my grip in his arm slowly loose as I stared at him blankly. Parang na blanko ang utak ko sa sinabi niya.

Fuck! Ang sakit...sobra.

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A/N: You can also read this one shot story in "Diary ng Medyo" along with my medyos' in life, just check it in my profile and add on your library if you want. Thanks🖤