Loosing His Mind [STEDDIE]

Flowers

He wasn't even thinking about school, he hated school.
Sure he was still Mr.Popularity but he lacked in the smarts department, Robin made that crystal clear to him when she use to tutor.
She bashed him for anything he did know.
Especially math.
"Are you serious?!? You don't know any algebra??"
It rang in his head, all the numbers, all the symbols, all the stupid equations and what not.
The thought alone made him shudder.
"Y'know you don't have to tutor me any more- I can maybe see if Eddie can help. We're both trying to graduate this year and maybe... I can get closer with him..?"
His voice was sincere and he seemed to be a bit scared to admit it. The look on his friends face backed up that fear.
Robin had a goofy smirk across her face, dimples forming on the edges of her fair skin.
"Wanna say that louder lover boy?"
She placed her cool hands on his warm and red skin of his face.
The boy swatted her away. Chuckling lighty as he his did
Perhaps he did wanna get closer, maybe he just wanted to study.
Lord knows that a crock of shit but he can pretend.
"Well I was actually going to ask you something."
Steve crooked up an eyebrow.
"Shoot."
The girl bit her lip excitedly as she smiled.
Jumping up on the counter so she sat just on the edge. Swinging her feet in delight.
"As you know I've been talking to a girl.-"
"Mhm, you refuse to share a name."
She shushed him, fingers wagging as giggled.
"Well it's just. She's use to be your-"
Steve was now tilting his head in the silliest way possible. It was true, Steve had big, round, innocent eyes that were complimented by the moles on his face. And boy could they pierce through anyone.
Even if he wasn't trying.
"Stop looking at me like that!! Your baby eyes are gonna make me burst!"
She covered her own.
"Fine, fine. 'She was was my' what?"
Robin peeked through her nimble fingers, tensing up as she spoke in a uncertain and almost questioning voice.
"She was your girlfriend.."
Steve squinted his eyes, trying to think of every girlfriend he's ever had.
There was a lot, and if he was to think any harder his head would explode.
"You gotta be more specific."
The freckled girl huffed defensively and crossed her arms.
"Oh c'mon you couldn't have had that many girlfriends!"
Steve shook his head, tongue running over his teeth as he smiled.
"One for each letter of the alphabet, some have doubles."
She rolled her eyes.
"Go ahead start naming!"
"Aniston, Beatrice, Brenda, Chole, Catty, Denise-"
She groaned loudly and fell gently backwards onto the counter.
"You're insufferable Steve!! Insufferable!!"
"Yeah sure, gimme a name."
He tapped his foot, hands resting on his hips like some tired mother who wanted her annoying child to behave.
"Her name starts with a N."
Steve began going through the internal database of girls he dated that's name started with a N.
"Natalia, Natalie, Nan-"
His tongue went dry.
He now knew.
She has been falling for a girl he once did.
She called their relationship bullshit.
Bullshit.
Bullshit!
What the fuck! She knew this how could she!!
He started breathing a bit heavier, he could feel his knees staring to give out from underneath him.
How could he? Nancy wasn't his! Robin isn't his either! He shouldn't be jealous!
He isn't jealous. He can't be.
With a half smile he spoke softly.
"That's great Robs- she's really...great. She seems like a good fit for you."
"No no Steve wait! We haven't started dating!! I just wanted to know if it was okay with you!"
She jumped down from the counter and walked up to him.
"Is it?"
He looked off to the side, her eyes were burning into him, hot as coals he could feel it.
What is he supposed to say? No? Like some pretentious douchebag?
He wasn't that anymore.
But it hurt so bad, worse that any torture he's been through.
Way worse.
Like if someone had grabbed all his organs and made a nice Steve smoothie.
"It's fine Robin. Really it is."
As the words fell out she hugged him tightly. Frizzy hair tickling under his chin.
He would have liked in under any other circumstances.
But it just felt as a million daggers went through his heart.
"Thank you, thank you! You're the best Steve!"
He hugged back lightly, cringing as he patted her on the back.
Tears started to form on the corners of his eyes as he began to choke up.
"Of course."
He would much rather prefer being dead right now.
"I uh, gotta finish sweeping the floor. Dirt y'know?"
He still wouldn't make eye contact. Using his fluffy hair to hide his face.
Robin let go and smiled, close eyed.
"Sure, Wanna grab lunch after this?"
Steve nodded and hurred off. Feet dragging against the wood floor.