I expected blood to be pouring from my arms by now
I expected to not be able to shower because of the stinging sensation of the water hitting the newfound scars
Or the seran wrap to be loosening itself from its position above the red lines
But that's not the case
I'm in the shower
Heat from the burning water radiating from my body
And it doesn't hurt
At least not in that way
Yea, the water hits my body, almost like an attack
Each stream from the showerhead slowly makes my skin red
I pace
Back and forth again and again
Thinking
About life
About my friends and my problems
Solutions obviously not coming to mind
I stand
Letting my mind go blank
For once, just letting myself be
In here, I'm not a problem solver or a therapist
It was 11:44 when I stepped in
Probably somewhere near 11:55 now
I know I should step out soon
But I don't want to
So I standLetting the water continue its violent attack on my body
I sigh and eventually continue the routine
Moving around so the steaming water can take the remaining body wash away
Down the drain it goes
I turn and run my fingers through my hair, slowly taking out the conditioner
Another sigh escapes as I turn the shower offI step out and dry myself before stepping into some pajamas
And leaving the burning solitude of the shower
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Spoken Word Poetry
PoetryThis is a collection of all of the poetry I've written, it's not great but if you like, please let me know. And please don't use my work with my permission