Wolfclanland ---Pink---

Chapter 22 - Max

She walks back with two teacups and hands one to me. I'm not much of a tea drinker and she knows it, but i'm not going to be dismissive in her own zen room so I give in and take a small sip, to sweet as usual.

“I know, my powers are growing but I can contain them.”

“Well that's good son, so you didn't scare your mate away with your powers?”

“No, no I......I was just uhm..” I? So it was my fault? “I did something wrong?” it came out almost sounding like a question.

“Well.....” she nods her head “you did!”

“Hey..... your quick to accuse me” I stated feeling a bit hurt she didn't take my side, tho I haven't given her any information about what happened.

“Is your mate here?” she gestures to the empty pillow next to us.

“Uhm.. no.” I answered a bit unsure, if this goes into an paranormal level im leaving.

“Well then you did do something wrong, if you did not, he would be here by your side.” she takes a sip of her teacup.

“Yeah” I sigh” I might have been a bit too much jealous, overbearing wolf lately.

“A bit? Son, you putt a lockdown on the pack”

“Oh... you heard about that?” I chuckled a bit dryly, trying to cover up how ridiculous it actually sounded.

“Of course, but your father and I thought we let you figure it out for yourself.” she put her teacup down on the floor. “Its not easy leading a pack, your father works day and night and he is not without mistakes, believe you me, but he always fixes his mistakes.”

It was nice hearing her talk about father, I didn't think they were that united. Well I did not even think they talked that much to each other. “I didn't know you guys talked about me.”

“What? Your our son, of course we talk about you. I dont think there is a single day we dont talk about you.”

“Oh...”

“I know you think that your father and I dont love each other” she sighes and I want to say something but no words come. “I know you think you know what love is, but you don't” she shakes her head “You have no idea because love is different for everyone. There is no end conclusion to love. Love is endless.”
“I love you're father very much and he loves me, we might not show our afection to eachother in public, but that does not mean we love each other any less. I come from a very private pack in the east and i'm not used to flaunt my love for my mate all about. And I dont see the need to be any other wolf than the one I am.”

“I... Im sorry mother, ive never thought of it like that. Its just I rarely saw you touch each other while growing up, and you only had me, so I assumed... I assumed wrong. I'm sorry mother.”

“Oh.. I would have loved to have more pups. But... “ She sighes and stand to fill up her cup again.

“But what?” she wanted more children? What happened? Father didn't want any?

“But.... as you know, I am a little wolf with fairly small hips, and an alpha wolf baby is bigger than a normal one, and you where really big when you came out. You didn't even stand on wobbly paws, you were standing solid from the first day,” she smiles “You were so strong” she sits back down again on the pillow next to me and grabes my hand.

“What happened?” I'm even afraid to ask.

“We were all prepeard of course, that you probably would be an alpha due to how quick my belly grew, and the first born of an alpha usually are. So we knew my pregnancy would be two months shorter than normal, but you came out after only six months – a month earlier. And they had to do an rushed c-section. It didn't go so well, I lost a lot of blood, and I kept on bleeding until we all decided to remove my uterus. All I wanted was you out safely, and you were.”

“I ruined you”

“No, no the pack was not as ecuiped as It is today, we had little tools and knowledge of alpha births, and it was my decision to remove all of it. It was a slight chance of my recovery, but it was also a chance of me bleeding out, so your father and I choose the easiest way out.”

“I'm so sorry, why didn't you tell me?”

“There were no need to, I am fine, and you came out a healthy and strong alpha. And I figured you have lots of pups of your own one day.” she smiles at me.

Right, well that will not happen any time soon since my mate is a dominant. Great, I still think of him as my mate, well technically in my book we are still mates because of the mating bite, even if he doesn't think so. I sigh leaning my head down at her shoulder, but because of our different size its a bit painful for my back and quite restraining for my neck. I just need her to pat my head, as she does. “any advice?”

“Yes, dont be an overbearing, jealous wolf.” she smiles

I lift my head up to scoff at her “Im not....” I was about to say - that bad, but my words hit me in the head, or my mother did.

“You locked down the pack!”

“But he will just run away!” I say weakly

“Then he is not the one.” and I hate how my heart aches. “If he loves you he will stay by your side.”

This was not going to be easy, but I needed to. I wanted Link by my side, but I could not force him to be my mate. He was still my beta and I needed to treat him like my beta, to trust him and not act like an overbearing jealous wolf.

Walking back into the house again its quiet, a bit to quiet. I stop outside Links bedroom but stop myself before entering. Turning my head I try to listen to any sounds, its quiet, but I hear a light breathing on the other side. The wolf in me have a dire need to enter his room and check if he is unharmed, but that wouldnt be me treating Link like a beta. He must be sleeping, I tried to tell myself as I turn around and walk up to my office.

Needing to distance myself from him before I do something I regret, again.

Slumping down in my chair in front of my huge desk I hear a rapid knock at my door. “Come in” I tiredly say. As the delta walks inn.

“Hey Sam” I say to the man walking up to me his look stern “what is it?” I question him.

“Hey” he says shifting a bit uncomfortably on his feet, but stil holding my gaze. “So, your alright?” he askes a bit tentative.

I sigh and lean back in my chair crossing my arms. Not really knowing what to say.

“I know its not any of my buisness, but Im here I you want to talk”

“Thanks Sam, I appreciate it.” but I still dont know what to tell him.

He nods “Uhm so, Mino wanted me to tell you that he is refusing to cook you dinner.” he scratches behind his ear and look a little sorry for me “Yeah, he said that if Link wasn't eating then Max would not be eating either, and he kept mumbling something about wishing you had a nut allergy I dont know what that was all about, but yeah....”

I swallowed hard at the mentioning about Link “He didn't eat?”

“uhm... no he hasn't left his room.” Sam says shaking his head “if your hungry I could make you something to eat, im no cheff but I can put cheese slices on bread.” he chuckels a humorless laugh.

“No thanks.” He needs to eat. I really messed this up haven't I.
I sigh and lay my head on the desk.

“Okay, I'll be downstairs if you need me” he says before backing out of my office.

As much as my wolf wanted to barge down stair and demand him to eat something I could not. That would be me scaring him of again. Even tho every hair on my wolf form wanted to care for my mate, I needed to stop obsessing and leave the dominante male alone.