7 years of being with him, I felt genuine happiness. 7 years with the man I love, I knew he was the one. 7 years filled with love and happiness; I've always known I would end up with him.
As I walked down the aisle, I saw the man I truly love. I couldn't contain the tears as we locked gaze. There he is, the man I see my future with, patiently waiting in front of the altar. I smiled, remembering the time when he promised to marry me in this church. Our eyes met. He smiled. This man sure is attractive, I thought. That smile was the reason why he caught my attention. Women would flock unto him like he's some prey ready to be devoured by its hunter. Every woman that would see him would definitely fall for him. But among all those women, his eyes were only for me.
I sat by the window side of the café drinking my iced coffee while reading my favorite book. While I was reading, I felt someone sat in front of me.
"Wow you read that? I really like that book." He said. "I'm sorry. Did I scare you? It's my first time lang kasi to see someone read that book." He chuckled. Who's this guy? Why did he suddenly sat and talked to me?
It was the first time someone showed interest about the books I read. The guy was happily talking about the book. He looked adorable while talking about it and how the authors words have influenced his life. I can't help but stare at his face.
His perfect jawline, his tantalizing eyes, and his dimples that shows every time he talks, his perfect brows and that smile. That perfect smile that awoke something within me. God, this man sure is one hell of a charmer.
"Hey, are you listening? Am I talking too much?" He asked. Damn. Did I stare that much? Do I seem like a creep staring? I hope not. I just got mesmerized at how attractive and adorable this guy in front of me is.
"Oh yeah! I'm sorry." I said while laughing nervously.
After that, we shared our thoughts about the book. I don't know but I felt so comfortable talking to him. I never really get comfortable with stranger immediately since I'm too nervous to talk to people. But this one. This one seems different. I got comfortable so easily. We talked about a lot of things. Feels like we've known each other since we were young but I just met him.
My phone rang, signaling that someone was calling me.
"Oh, we've been talking a lot. Di ko napansin ang oras." He said. Oo nga 'no, masyado kaming immersed sa isa't isa that we forgot about the time.
"Right. Anyways, I have to go. May meeting pa ako." I smiled. "It was nice talking to you. Thank you for keeping me company." He did assure not to make me bored. Damn, I don't want to go yet. But I have to. I still have a meeting with a client.
"The pleasure is mine. Uhm, is it okay if I ask for your number? I would love to talk to you about a lot of things. Seems like we got a lot in common." He politely asked. Should I? Or should I not? Sayang naman kung hindi. I really want to know a lot of things about him.
And with that one question, everything started. The first chapter of our love story finally started. We started seeing each other at that café and talk about a lot of things. We did a lot of things together. He basically brought the best out of me. He made me go out of my comfort zone. He made me try sky diving, bungee jumping, hiking, trekking, scuba diving, and surfing. All of my first times are with him.
"That was fun." Sabi niya after taking the harness off his body. We tried zip lining in Dahilayan, as I've told him I haven't tried it.
"Muntik na mawala kaluluwa ko. But it was fun." I said. Another first time with him. Ilang first time na ba ito na kasama ko siya? I don't know. I've lost count.
We're eating at the restaurant inside Dahilayan Forest Park, when he stared at me while I was laughing at a funny story that he said.
"You know what? Your smile is so warm. I'd love to see that smile every day." He said that made me stopped from laughing. What does he mean by he'd love to see this smile every day? Don't tell me...
"We've been hanging out for quite a while now and every day feels like healing when I'm with you. I know you'd probably won't like what I will say but I'm falling in love with you." He said that caught me off guard. "Ever since nakita kita sa café na 'yon habang nagbabasa, you never left my mind. Ikaw palagi ang iniisip ko. I think you can say na sobrang nahulog na nga ako." Totoo ba? I've never heard these things ever since. But I felt relieved. Relieved because he felt the same thing.
"I feel the same thing too. You made me feel something I've never felt before. You are my healing. You brought the best out of me. So, I can say that, kwits tayo?" I said and laughed remembering our inside joke about being kwits.
"Wow, you don't know how happy that made me feel." He said and got out of his chair to hug me.
We stared at each other for a long time. He started leaning his head towards me. Fck, what do I do? Is he gonna kiss me? Right here, right now? I got lost on my train of thoughts when I felt something soft on my lips. We kissed. He kissed me. What.
"I love you so much." We said to each other after breaking the kiss.
God, thank you for making me meet this man. Mamahalin ko po sya sa abot ng makakaya ko.
I remembered everything as if it just happened yesterday. I still remember all the memories we have shared together.
I arrived in front and gave him a warm smile while mouthing Congratulations. My greatest love is going to marry someone but that someone is not me. Although I am smiling so wide that a flock of birds can consume the whole space, there is still a tingling sensation inside my chest that I couldn't describe. It hurts but despite the pain, I still feel happy for him. But as I celebrated for his happiness, I can't hide the fact that I still mourn over our love that felt like forever but faded away in just a snap of a finger.
Everything was so perfect
So perfect that it scared me.
I thought we were meant to be together,
Turns out we're not.
We fixed each other,
To be ready for someone else.
I am happy for you
But it still hurts seeing the soft smile you only show to me,
Shown to someone else.
I hope she won't give you up,
And fight for your love,
Something I didn't do when we were still together.
Congratulations.
