No harm - List ( ON GOING )

◇Chapter Ten◇

Feeling a bit dizzy and my head hurt, yep hangover.  I open my eyes and a sun light touches my bare face. I heard low groan and I found Tiffany sleeping peacefully next to me. She's hugging my waist a bit tight and snuggling her face on the crock of my neck  making me feel her hot breathe.

Its been so long since we shared bed, and to be honest I don't mind. But after she confessed that she's gay, we stopped sleeping together. I had thought of It before, but she didn't gave me  any reason, and I don't want her to feel uncomfortable about it. 

I push her gently for me to get up but she just hug me tighter, and I heard  her mumble my name. I gently tap her face waking her up.

" Tiffany , hey wake up " I said making her eyes slowly open and she look at me. I smile and she just look at me with unknown expression. I got bit worried so I ask her, maybe there is something bothering her.

" You okay? What's with that look ? " I asked. She took a deep breath and sit up on the bed.

" I need to talk to you. No, I have something to tell you " She said looking outside. I sit up as well and look at her with worried expression. Why do I feel nervous about this ? Have I done something bad last night? Geez , I hope I didn't.

" Umi...." She started and turn her gaze at me watery  eyes, my eyes widen and I hold her face .

" Hey what's wrong ? Why are  you crying " I asked and she holds my hands both still looking at me .

" Umi.... I'm sorry but I can't hide this feelings anymore. " I'm so confused , what feelings she's talking about ?

" W-what do you mean ?" I asked slowly pulling my hands from her hold only for her to hold my hands tight .

" I... Like you , Umi "

Jared's POV

The meeting last night was cancelled but we did some stuffs to finished . And here we are , on the long dinning table of the  Lee's mansion sitting and waiting patiently on Zuki's father and mine. Faint foot steps was heard outside of dinner hall and just then.. the door opens revealing my father and Mr. Lee . I look over at Zuki who's looking at her phone but suddenly snapped her head up and look over to them as well. We all stand up and greeted them.

" Ah boys , thank you for coming here. I really appreciate it. Long time no see my dear daughter, Kazuki. " The old man said and Zuki stands up and greeted her father with a hug. They always this close like a perfect father and daughter goals.

" Father , its good to see you as well " Zuki said with a small smile . I then stand up and greet my father and he hug me.

" Son " He only said

" Father, good to see you " I said making him nodded. We all took our seats and just by then the food came to serve us. My father suddenly clear his trout and speak .

" So, son. How was the organization doing ? I hope nothing is damage since you are carrying our family's name. " he said , I place my utensil and look at him with no emotion. His always like this , acting like father in front of my friends where he really doesn't.

" Everything is fine, father. Our last transaction by the Uy dynasty went brutal than ever since they are too stubborn and hard to talk . But as for the report of Zuki, everything went well. " I said and he only nodded. Mr. Lee on other hand had a satisfied look on what I have mentioned about his daughter. 

" You and my daughter had a strong bond of friendship that seems to be a great bond on our organization. Sad to say that my dear Zuki doesn't have a taste on men" Mr . Lee said making Zuki stop chewing her food.

" Zuki .. I think its time for you to have a husband- " Mr. Lee was cut off by loud slam on the table making other plates and utensil fall from the ground . And the person was doing it is ... Zuki and her icy gaze towards her father.

" Don't you...  ever think about it. You can't  make me marry someone I don't love and mostly ..  you can't make me marry a man."  She said in cold tone , we all look at her stunned . My father seems unbothered and still enjoying his food.

" I'm done " Zuki said and she left the dinning hall making her father shake his head and rub his forehead.

Tiffany's POV

Her eyes was too hard to read but still mesmerizing as always. She suddenly look away and pull her hold away from my face. I thought I can be somehow feel good now that I told her how I feel , but I guess its the opposite.

" Don't j-joke around Fany . I'm telling you its not- " I cut her off by pinning her down on the bed.

" Do I look like I'm joking to you ? Are you always this numb about how I feel about you!? " I said in between my sob . She then look at me crying , I guess she really was confused right now. Am I being too selfish ? I sit up on the bed looking down avoiding her gaze.

" Umi since we were in college, I like you and I care about you. Remember the times that our colleagues teased us for being always together, and they said I may had a feelings for you ? Umi, its true.." I said slowly looking at her.  She then hold my face and wipe my tears. I can't take this anymore, I get off the bed and grab my jacket. I was about to leave but Umi back hugs me.

" Fany .. I'm confused. B-but please don't leave yet." She said and I shut my eyes more tears falling down on my cheeks. I gulp and turn to look at her with a small smile. I can't take a rejection because its painful  and it will be more painful coming from my best friend. I know she can't like or love me back the way I feel towards her. So I need to be away from her for now.

" I'm sorry I made you confused. But you don't have to say anything, I know you can't like me back and that's okay." I said

" I- I don't know what to s-say- " I cut her off again, but this time I hug her .

" Stop. Its okay ... I just need to be alone for now. " I said. I look at her and kiss her forehead making her  eyes close.

" Take care , Umi " I said and walking outside her room . She tried to stop me but I just push her and close the door of  her house. Hearing her crying is painful, it breaks me inside. But I guess this is for the best. As for my question , Am I too selfish? I confessed , but I didn't made an effort to show it to her, leaving her confused at this state , and leaving her just because I know she can't like or love me back. Yeah, I guess ...

I am selfish..