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After class I meet up with Joy and Dai. 

"Hey," they greet me 

"Your introduction was wicked," Joy exclaims 

"Yeah I've never heard Prof. Kali stutter before," Dai chimes in. 

"Uh yeah thanks," I say still distracted 

"Oh looks like someone has a crush on Silas Ashford," Joy teases and nudges me with her elbow while giggling I give her a disgusted look 

"Gross, in case I haven't made it clear I don't like people, you guys are only here to show me how things work then we can go our separate ways," I say indifferently lifting my chin 

"Awww come on don't be like that you know you love us," The twins say at the same time 

"No," I say turning away I can't love anyone because everyone leaves and I can't have someone leave again without shutting down completely, it's fine and true that I'm a bit of a sociopath, I can shut off my emotions and just be numb but if that happens again I won't be able to when to turn them back on because I'll feel like I won't need to, the first and last time I did something so reckless was after mom died I just didn't want to feel anymore thankfully my brother got through to me and helped me feel again I still remember the feeling of being completely numb It was like I wasn't actually there. 

I sigh as I think about the memory pulling on my headphones. I get lost in my thoughts and memories.

"MMMOOOOMMMMM, Mom, mom, please wake up please," I shake her limp body as fat tears roll down my cheeks making my vision blurry "Ah the phone... 9..1..1," I mutter then the phone starts to ring I hold it up to my ear as someone pick up on the other side 

" Hello 911 what's your emergency?" A lady asks calmly 

"M-my m-mom a-a-and I were s-skating a-and s-s-she slipped and h-hit her h-head on a-a-a rock a-a-and now s-she's b-bleeding a-a lot a-and I don't k-know what t-to d-do s-so p-please help," I stutter starting to get scared 

"Alright sweetie tell me where you and I'll send and ambulance to come pick up you and your mom," The lady says reassuringly 

"Um oh were at Lake Camilla just off the main road," I say remembering the sign I saw 

"Okay just sit tight they're on their way," the lady replied hanging up I hear some soft creaks in the ice and realize the ice is going to melt because of the heat from the blood seeping slowly onto the ice, I skate back over to Mom and push her onto the snow bank staining the pure white snow with crimson blood I start to tremble as I realize how much blood she's losing and use her scarf to try and stop the bleeding the bleeding starts to slow when I feel my cheeks start to prickle, startling me. 

I start to wipe off the frost, starting to grow on my cheeks, smearing the blood from my hands to my cheeks. Tears start spilling from my eyes again as my stress level spikes. 

My left hand starts shaking violently. I close my eyes and take deep breaths trying to calm down. 

Three minutes later the police and ambulance arrives. Paramedics pull out a stretcher and carry my mom away on it. 

I stand up and try to run after them but the skates make it extremely difficult and I keep slipping and falling down "

Hey do you need help?" A police officer bends down to ask me as I try to regain my footing 

"N-no t-thanks I n-need to learn h-how to be an independent p-person," I say as I finally stand up again then make my way to the ambulance a paramedic leans down to ask if I was the person who called when I say yes he picks me up and puts me in the ambulance while wrapping a blanket around me, during the drive someone ask me if I know my dad's number I say yes and give it to him. 

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