I'm not made for this

Intro

Hello I guess, I'm Judit. I'm already cringing at the fact I'm introducing myself to nobody, so I'll act like this is a personal diary and nobody is able to read it.

I've been wanting to do some kind of blog, or content creating channel just talking about things that I'm feeling that I don't see people talking about. They may not talk about it because no one else does. We all need validation, and normally, we search for it online. Which is kind of extremely dangerous, but I'd like to talk about it in a different, more extendible chapter.

As I was saying, I've wanted to do this for a while, whenever I put my thoughts into words everything feels a a bit better than it did. As freeing as crying could be. I don't really tend to talk about my feelings and thoughts with my friends or close people, and I'm also pretty camera shy, and though Wattpad is pretty dead now (and I'm using my account from when I was 15 years old), I still thought this was the best option that's closer to a blog or whatever this is . I wouldn't call it a blog... I'm not here to talk about my life. I really don't know what this is.

I'm almost 21. I'm a psychology student in Universitat de Barcelona,  which is like, where I live. I knew I wanted to study Psychology when I was around 14-15. I wanted to understand what was wrong with me, why was I sad for no reason, why was I so mad at the world, why did things affect to people differently, how to deal with them, etc. Its a topic that has always interested me, how do humans work and why do humans work the way we work. Has history build and carved us or our nature is just the way it is no explanation further? 

Do I have the answer? Absolutely not. Do others have it? Absolutely not again. There's not a clear answer about anything really. So, we just have to find a courage to rely on ourselves and in our own opinions? Sounds easier than it is. People can actually do that, that's crazy. But I think I'll explain that in a different chapter .

Anyways, I don't really have any more comments. Hope you enjoy, or not? I don't really know if this can be enjoyable or not. I hope it makes you think and possibly helps you with important decisions, or even not so important, that you have to make. I hope this can help you feel less miserable or more, if realising something's wrong with your life will help you change it for the good. I wish you can feel understood or acompanied. I just really wish I can give to everyone else what I never had. 

If this ends up really reaching anyone, I'd be more than happy to talk about anything you suggest in the comments. Thank you.