Dream High (On-Going)

Chapter 35: This is Our Goodbye

Yeji,Hyunjin, and Inyeop...

Sunghoon and Jay...

Yoona, Yuna, and Lia...

Kim Ji Eun, my older sister...

And lastly, Jaemin...

The guy I love the most

I got into this place unexpectedly. I experienced a fairytale-like story. I think I got attached too much but I need to wake up now. I need to wake up from this dream and face the reality

A reality where a world without some of them is waiting for me

"It's already 7PM, are you sure you don't want to give them the letters by yourself? You should say goodbye to them personally" my dad said

I badly want to. I badly want to give them a hug one by one, thank them for being my friend, and tell them that I love them. But I don't think I can handle seeing their reactions. I don't think I can handle hearing them say "Please, don't leave". I don't think I can still leave this place once I face them

These kind of things are easy for me before. I can easily abandon people that is important to me but everything has changed. I became a soft-hearted person and it was all because of them, especially him. They changed me. He changed me and I don't know if I should be grateful about that. But one thing is for sure...

I need to bring back at least the half of me before...

I changed too much to the point that simple things hurt me easily now

Dad later on left to give the letters that I wrote to each of the important people I met here in District 9. I wrote all of that last night and I don't think the word "pain" can describe how painful it was writing those letters while memories from the past flashing on my mind

Especially when I wrote the letter for Jaemin. I almost can't breathe because of crying too much. The thought of him waiting for me without knowing that I'm already gone is beyond pain. I don't have the guts to say everything to his face because I knew that he's my weakness. I might immediately forget about leaving and consider staying here when I see him cry

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When 12PM comes, I decided to prepare. Our flight is 1:00 AM. Haechan was already waiting downstairs along with Yoon Su. Yoon Su will be joining us to accompany me. That's so kind of him even though I know that he's instructed to report everything that I'm doing to the Moon Family

Speaking of the Moon Family, we haven't met since that night when the higher ups came. I don't want to meet them either. They don't even know that I'm staying here. It was Jin and his fiancee who lended me this mansion. I think this is their resthouse here in Seoul

"We still have some time, why don't you look around for the last time. For sure you're going to miss this place" Haechan said when he entered the room carrying his car keys

"They might see me--"

"It's already late, do you really think they're still roaming outside? Jaemin already go home" he said

He has a point

I looked at myself in the mirror and smiled a little but the genuineness wasn't there. I want to smile for the last time before leaving this place

A genuine smile at least...

I stood up and grabbed my coat and my mom's camera. Dad fixed this for me