𝐒𝐄𝐂𝐑𝐄𝐓 • 𝘫𝘰𝘩𝘯𝘯𝘺 𝘴𝘶𝘩

「 twenty two」

Hearing the sudden burst of frustration from the younger, it made Johnny knit his brows at the sudden outburst, curious on the reaction Doyoung gave that made him wonder the reason for the unnecessary scolding. With his nose crinkled in disgust, the suh wonder how the kim knew his sister's age yet again, he ignored it and recall why he is stress on the first place."Ugh I can't believe I'm more stressed out for my sister than I could ever get in a relationship." He groans in a matter of fact, indeed troubled for the well being of the younger suh to even get himself committed to someone else, prioritising his own stubborn and bratty sister who have issues he couldn't even decipher until now. "This is why I'm still single."

"Why don't you date then?" Doyoung immediately responds, scoffing on the discovery that the suh is single when literally he's considered to be the flirtiest and romantic member from the ten of them, even the fans suspect Johnny secretly dating when in reality, even the kim himself is taken back from the information.

The older sighs and stares intently on the ceiling, body starts to feel heavy. "I can't, I just simply can't because a Jane always worries the life out of me and I feel like I need to look after her since I couldn't help but to be guilty of messing with her memory." he gurgled, reminiscing the lingering memory that he's been carrying for thirteen years, the aching piece of memory that scratch a huge burn to himself. "Not that I haven't moved on, well I'm trying and I already accepted the mistake I made but I just simply can't get over it because I still haven't told her the accident she faced until now." he admitted with a heavy heart, finding it ironic how he's furious on Jena concealing secrets when he himself hides his own secret too, a classified information that still suffocates him every night.

Doyoung frowns on the thought of the two siblings haven't talk out their issues, more specifically all their hidden agendas that the two parties are holding onto; Johnny with his guilt on an accident Jena is unaware of meanwhile Jena not willing to admit she was never fine from the all mess she have on her idol life (and the fact she's dating him when literally Johnny prohibits her to do.) He closes his notebook and holds onto the bridge of his nose and exhales sharply, shaking his head slightly, he just hopes the two resolve all their misunderstanding and sorrows without anything intervening, wishing the best for the suhs.

"And besides, I'm the only one to smack some senses into that brat, we live far away from our parents and I guess it's my responsibility to take care of her for now since we can't go back to Chicago." the suh added to mask up the agony vibrating on Doyoung's room, lessening the damage that he already has done from coming over to the younger but glad the male is understanding.

A comforting eerie echoed through the room along with the buzzing sound of the air conditioner, the two males enjoying the mere silence between them. The suh lay down quietly whilst he gets lost in his own mind, brows furrowed  as he thinks deeply. The younger took the floating mind of the older and dive back into sketching, doodling tulips, peony, carnation and all the flowers Doyoung could think off, pausing his drawing halfway when he realized he still have no present for his lover yet and have no idea what gift he could give her. The kim finds himself deep into thought on recalling the younger suh, debating on the many options he could offer to her, only to halt when Johnny suddenly spoke up and pop the bubbling silence.

"Hey Doyoung, what detergent did you use for the blanket?"

The male lost his senses and got flustered on the question, a hand scratching his nape as he was suddenly embarrassed. He squinted for a couple of times before he answered, cheeks flustering in a hot mess as he did so. "I-i don't, I don't know this is my girlfriend's blanket." he stammered bashfully. He briefly explained that his girlfriend thought of the idea of exchanging blankets since they've been busy and missing each other dearly, letting the fragrance of their own pick of detergent fill the void in their hearts. Doyoung thought that he wouldn't be more shocked as he is right now, not until the male requested something from him. "You want me to ask her?" he clarifies, his lips curved up but eventually faded when he cleared his throat.