𝐒𝐄𝐂𝐑𝐄𝐓 • 𝘫𝘰𝘩𝘯𝘯𝘺 𝘴𝘶𝘩

「 twenty one 」

After a few weeks of her trial against the ex trainees, she couldn't help but to reminisce about the past she's been concealing; from the simple exhaustion from practising, all the doubts and insecurities on debuting and the lies she've feed to her parents assuring her that she's doing fine even if she's far from feeling alive, all the memories seem to flood her mind recently and there was no doubt she's been rethinking all the choices she made to get where she is today. Was the pain really worth it? "All the suffering, trauma, and the pain I've been suppressing is finally getting to me. Fuck, I'm messed up, big time." She mutters her pain with humour, striving her best to conceal her words with her laughter but eventually hides her teary face with her palms, cursing at how the alcohol in her system is making her vulnerable in front of her boyfriend.

Even if Jena barely talks about her feelings, Doyoung knows how difficult she feels being homesick; hearing the melancholy and grief in her voice whenever she talks about home. The male places a hand on her back and rubs comforting circles on it, letting the silence and his small gestures be her reliever. He or Johnny himself may not knew what exactly Jena has been through but the kim she had it tough; an eleven year old kid training for her dreams, a literal child taken away from her home and forced to live with other people in a country she barely knew, giving up her childhood and had to swallow every agony she faced just to get where she is now.

 Doyoung knew how much she misses her parents and her wasted childhood and oftentimes notice how childish Jena can be just because she never did enjoy it enough before, making Jena act childish with unsolved issues she wanted to escape from.

And it wasn't a joke that he doesn't know how to help her but an idea popped up in his mind on remembering the cause of sadness for his lover. "You know you can always tag along whenever I go out with my mom," he announces genuinely, earning a flustered suh staring at him, which makes the male smile widely on hearing how embarrassed Jena is on the idea, reasoning out that she didn't want to steal the bonding time he and his mom have. "No really, it's fine Jen, in fact my mom wants to meet you." he assures casually, as if it wasn't a big deal for him to let mama kim meet the love of his life.

From the sadness she has been feeling, it was now far gone and is replace with butterflies inside her stomach, cheeks flushing in a pinkish tone on digesting that his mom wanted to meet her personally, heart skipping a beat on hearing that mama kim knew so much about her personality than her image as an idol. She then listened on hearing her boyfriend telling how much his mom was dying to meet her, only to laugh on the reason behind it.

"Your mom thinks your brother likes me?" Jena asks as she wheezes, shaking her head upon hearing that mama kim knew her all because of Gongmyung's consistent praises behind her back. She smiled when Doyoung chatted about how much his brother talks about her at home, which was actually surprising for her to hear.  "Wait he does?" she questions the obvious, trying to digest the fact Donghyun talks about her to his mom and mama kim being convinced that maybe the older kim had a crush on her, which is actually funny to think about but for Doyoung it was the complete opposite.

"Yeah and I swear to god he's too annoying whenever he talks about you at home." the kim snarled along his eyes rolled in frustration, gripping onto his cold beverage that is bound to burst out at how aggressive his grasp is.

"Why because you're jealous?" She asks cheekily, biting off a loud laugh when the male utters a no with a bitter tone. Jena listened all throughout her boyfriend denying his prominent jealousy towards his own brother, restraining herself from wheezing on the unnecessary defence the older is giving. She smiles tauntingly. "Okay Doyoung, okay, I get it, I really get it that you're not jealous, yeah I know, shush now handsome. Yeah I know you're not jealous." 

"Shut up, you're teasing me again." He droned, faking his long gone frustration just to cheer her up, eventually laughing along when Jena finally cracked up a wheeze, always finding it amusing to see him pissed which he barely minds. Doyoung leaned forward and held onto the soft cheeks of the younger, using his thumb to remove the tear that was stuck on her face, he grins sincerely as he presses a small peck on her lips.  "I love you."

"I love you too," Jena replies and reciprocates his action, throwing her arms around his neck to pull him closer, placing a couple of pecks on his lips and cheeks due to adoration and the alcohol tingling her veins. Even if she didn't elaborate her feelings and her affection towards the older, she was glad that Doyoung understands her and is patient with her, always assuring that he would never leave her no matter storm or disaster she's in, he's always there to help and guide her, always.

"And I will always love you Dongyoung. Thank you for staying and for giving me all the love and affection I never thought I deserve."