[TRIGGER WARNING; S^XUAL ASS^ULT]
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i cant forget it,
and i cant remove it.
like cattle getting branded,
helpless and frozen in fear.
burning through my flesh,
it's on me forever,
your touch.
why did you do it?
i trusted you.
i trusted you so fucking much.
the one person i thought didn't have a single bad bone in his body.
your touch,
it's engraved into my mind and body,
forever.
did i deserve it?
the pain,
the memory,
seeing you everyday like nothing ever happened?
but what if i imagined it?
what if i made it all up and you are still the same sweet boy?
no.
that's not it.
it was all too real,
all too vividly replaying in my mind.
your touch.
do you even remember doing it?
or was it just another tuesday morning to you?
no, you knew it was wrong,
but you did it anyway.
you must've known.
you thought i was sound asleep,
dreaming of sweet things.
but i was awake,
wide awake.
i heard you repeatedly call my name before you took advantage of my innocence and helpless "sleeping" body.
i wanted to answer,
i wanted to do anything to make you stop,
but i was frozen in time.
"this cant be happening, not to me." i thought.
"he's not this type of person." i told myself repeatedly.
to this day,
i still look for reasons to tell myself it was all fake.
anything to change the image of you in my mind back to that sweet young boy i once knew.
