The Matching Bracelets

Intro

Next thing I knew was that it was five and it was my time to leave, so I called Kate and asked if she wanted to go to the bar with me tonight and as you already know she said yes. On my way home I felt really empty, very quiet and very sad. I don't know why I let Jace get in my head a lot.. Does he even mean his words? I thought, has he really changed? I felt like I was always walking on eggshells with him one minute he would be fine and happy the next thing you know he's dry and doesn't wanna talk to me. He's so confusing. I got home and I hopped in the shower, I turned on the hot water and let the water sit and get warm. I slipped off all my clothes and took my hair out of its tight bun. I stepped in the shower and let all my thoughts and problems drift away, the hot water was sliding down the back of my neck all the way down my body, it felt so good to feel okay. After my shower I get back into my room and get dressed. I threw on blacked ripped jeans and a blue crop top, I put my hair back up so I wouldn't have to go through struggles of drying and then straightening it. By the time I leave it's 6:00 I meet Kate at the bar.
"Kate hey " I said she greeted me back with a smile and a shot of vodka, my favorite and this is why I love her. Throughout the night we down shots as if there were water. I mean it's just a saturday night you should see me on a friday saturdays are just clean ups. While sitting on the bar stool I ask to get another round of shots, I don't know where Kate went, all I know is that she's with a guy she just meant. I'm sure I saw that man fall in love, what a poor man to be in that position I thought. While sitting there I look back and see a gorgeous man walk in, he smiled at me but that smile would make a girl get on her knees let alone make them go weak. He walked up to me and said " can I buy you a drink?" simply nodding my head yes he orders us a round of shots " so what's your name?" I asked "zayn" he said back while downing a shot " ouu zayn what a sexy name yet what's sexier is that smile" Oh yeah?" He said back with a smirk followed by wink, I downed another shot not knowing even how to walk at this point "lets go dance zayn"
I grabbed his hand and stumbled to the dance floor next thing you know my favorite song came on Billie Jean came on. He grabbed my hands and danced with me as we sang billie jean, it felt like one of those movie scenes, to me it was only me and him or maybe that was the alcohol talking. We looked at eachother and sang like it was just us and at this point it was until the moment got ruined by a tap on the shoulder " may I have a dance party girl?" uhh'' I said back " she's a little busy right now bro" zayn said " I mean I see that but i'd like a chance with her again we need to catch up more hm?" I stood there just thinking and zayn noticed that so he stepped in front of me " look I dont want any issues with anyone tonight im just looking for a good time yet your kinda ruining the vibe right now so please just back the fuck off" liam looked at me than back at zayn and he said " okay" he stood there for a minute and wiped his nose before throwing a punch at zayn next thing you know there both fighting on the floor and im yelling at them to stop zayn ends up getting on top of liam and getting a good few punches in and you can tell for the fact liam's nose is leaking. Security runs over and separates the fight and kicks all three of us out but before we leave I grab one more shot.
" What's douchebag " zayn said " yeah I know I just met him at my work today" I replied back feeling nauseous then it hit me " do you have any water " I asked zayn " no why are you okay?" he looked a little concerned " yeah i'm good, just a little thirsty" until I turned around and started puking my guts out " shit are you okay" zayn asked while he told me to wait there and he went to go get some water from inside the bar. He came back and held my hair for me as I stood there " easy there have some water." He told me as if I could just stop. I took the water and started drinking it slowly " don't tell me what to do but thanks " I replied. It was nice to have someone care but its the fact I can care for myself I don't need anyone to cater me, than it hit me " fuck wheres kate" I said starting to panic " whos kate?" zayn asked " fuck fuck fuck fuck" as I try to grab my phone I drop my phone and part of it cracks I stumble to grab it and when I do I see that kate went home and she was okay so I sigh in relief " whos kate oh god please tell me that not your girlfriend or something" fuck that sounded bad im not homophobic its just this is happend before and her girlfriend was like insane and tried to kill me " yeah its my girlfriend" I said back "wait actually, I got to go" as he started walking away I yelled at him " shes my bestfriend" while laughing he sighed up and looked at the sky " thank you god" he started walking towards me and said "lets get you home, want me to take you or call you a uber or what" he asked me " well just drive my car home and uber back here" " wheres your keys " I pull out my purse and dig for my keys, I finally find my keys and see on my key chain that my hello kitty charm was missing " hm thats weird my hello kitty charm must've fell off" zayn grabs my keys and I lead him to my car we both get in and I just sit there. " so do you ever wanna hangout again or something" zayn asked nervously " I mean in a few minutes im gonna miss that sexy smile" zayn smiled at me and placed his hand on my thigh while the other was on the steering wheel. We got back to my house and he walked me to my door, the alcohol sure in hell was kicking my ass for the way I was stumbling. I unlocked my door and I stood there looking to zayns beautiful dark blue eyes, the kinda eyes that remind you of laying in a field at midnight looking at the dark sky with the pretty stars flashing back at you just like you were flashing a pretty smile towards them, that's a night you'd never forget. I wanted to say more to zayn but everything started hitting me, when the alcohol turns bad I turn bad there's not much for me to say so I just closed the door, which was really rude but I can't catch feelings for anyone, it always ends up one way and I can't handle the outcome. I just sat there looking at my phone until I seen Jace texted me "please talk to me, I need you" but he doesn't mean those words so why do I always take them into consideration. His actions don't match up with his words and yet I still trust his words as if he hasn't lied to me before. But I missed him maybe it was the feelings he gave me, maybe it was his smile or his way with words maybe it was how he handled me maybe it was because he knew me, he knew my mind,how my body worked, he knew my family issues and my life story and such as what happened to me when I was little. Getting over that heartbreak changed my whole mind and thought process completely. I changed as a person for those seven months I isolated myself, everyone noticed but not one person reached out and asked if I was okay. And that's what tore me apart. Everyone knew and they blamed us for falling out because of me, I put all the energy into my friendships and relationships and the reason I barely have any anymore is because I stopped carrying everything and everyone in my life. I looked that heartbreak in the face as if it didn't completely destroy me physically and mentally, I dropped weight, I lost my mind,myself,my family and friends over someone who manipulated me into thinking they loved me, taking advantage of my body and heart and threw me away as if I was nothing, and at that point I was convinced that I was what he said I was. Let's just say my version of love has never been good. I snapped out of my mind finally and I realized that I shouldn't dwell over Jace. The feeling I felt tonight was unmatched to any feelings I've ever had and that was just about an hour with somebody. I thought about seeing if zayn was still there and to my surprise he was " oh my god hi im so sorry I closed the door in your face, just so much happened in my head and it was a lot to process"
Zayn stood up and looked at me before saying " it's completely okay I understand that's how you're feeling but don't let your mind get to your head live in the moment and think about the bright side" and I always try to but it gets harder when I get drunk. Zayn was what I needed but it's hard to accept the good when I always get treated badly. As I was standing there I couldn't help but smile, it's so damn hard to accept the good but damn I want it bad. Before you know it zayns uber was here " here's my number" as zayn gives me his phone, I pull out mine and type it in, "i'll catch you later sexy" zayn says as he walks out. That was nice he was nice but I needed to shower, so I went to the shower and turned it on. I take off my clothes and I walk in, the freezing cold water hits my skin and makes my skin jump, mid shower I hear my phone ring. It was a facetime call from Jace. I answered it while pointing it to my ceiling "what are you doing?" jace asked " im in the shower dumbass what the fuck do you want let alone why are you calling me " I say back as half of my body was in the shower the other half getting touched by the fresh cold air that my conditioner was bringing " woah first off calm down and second off without me?" I had never felt this annoyed yet angry with some one until he said the words " let's do something, let me see you" I always felt so powerless for the fact what a man only ever wants is a female body, It makes me feel so powerless giving myself up to a piece of shit who manipulates me into thinking he loves me and as if he deserves it.
He only ever calls me for that reason and he cant ever take a simple fucking no. He has not only drained me of my energy, he has drained me of having the right to be a woman, let alone my right of saying no and having innocence got taken away from me since a young age. I didnt have any words so I just hung up, what a waste of fucking time . I slip back into the dimension that my shower brings and I let all feelings of jace wash away. I get out of the shower and get situated as soon as I am clothed,
I'm going to bed I thought and as soon as I was I was out like a light.