SELF IDENTITY

THE ASSAULT

I was awaken by a loud bang on my door. I mumble come in,my mum standing over the door with a stern face told me to look after myself as she left for work with her husband. I handled my hygiene, did my hair in a tight bun,wore some casuals,grabbed the keys to the house and left with my backpack for school,just few blocks from home. Finally settled in,I hardly concentrate in class, as a lot rummaged through my mind,wondering why my dad could do that to me?does my mum know about it? Why don't we ever have family discussions?was I adopted? I'm I doing something wrong? I wonder if she knows my favorites, amidst my thought I heard a tap on my desk, the teacher miss Anne had walked up to me, she asked if I was okay, startled I looked up to her embarrassed I said I was okay. She then asked me to give the correct answer, to what was on the board, I stood up and gazed into space and stuttered and felt ashamed. She was so nice she told me to sit and explained all over, I sat down feeling stupid, because I knew the right answer but suddenly felt tongue tied. By the way she got a nice body and a sweet smile on her face I could not resist staring lustfully at her, I think I'm obsessed with her. The day went by so fast,on my way home down a lonely walk path,I was crossed by the notorious girls cult in school,I felt so fucked up, I always avoid encounters with any of em, they were four in number,the first girl walked up my face grabbed my bun and let it loose, my hair strands coming off too, I tried to run but was caught off guard by the second girl who tripped me leaving me face down, the third and fourth girl held my legs tightly to the floor,then the first girl brought out a vibrator and came unto me, I had my mouth stuffed with rag my little screams could hardly be heard. She unbuttoned my shirt and had the vibrator on my left nipple while her wet tongue teased my right nipple with her hands roughly caressing my body,while the other two were digging down my panties they all took turns with me. They threatened me to dare spill what they did, they left with no guilt as the first girl kissed me then spat on me, I was left devastated and in tears as I sat down till the day got dark and left for home.
I got home to meet my parents, mum already made dinner, I mumbled past her greetings trying to hide myself, got into my room freshened up then got my act together like nothing happened, went down to have dinner with family, each one with em business hardly talking,with no one noticing my limp and bruise, like they ever noticed. Had a little bit and went to bed with a heavy heart, amidst that fell asleep thinking of miss Anne.