CheonHa One Shots

I Love You So

"Ha Yoon Cheol, I'm talking to you. Don't you dare turn your back at me," I said sternly, trying my best to avoid my voice from breaking and my tears from falling.

"I'm not in the mood to argue, Seo Jin." He looked at me blankly. "I want to sleep, I had a long day at the hospital. Don't make it even more worse."

I scoff at his remarks. Really, he makes me want to punch him in the face right now. What a fucking liar. "Hospital, huh? I went there to bring you lunch but I didn't see you or even your fucking shadow. And now you're telling me this? Stop making me look stupid, Yoon Cheol."

He grinned and lean his face closer to me. There he goes again with his insulting smile. "Wow, the great Cheon Seo Jin brought me lunch? Did your dad asked you to do that? You know, in order for him to give you what you want. Another signature bag, I guess?"

There you go. He finally hit a nerve. I couldn't help myself but to slap him in the face. It surprises me that his words can still pain me like hell. We've been married for 17 years, and I couldn't even remember how many times we've fought, or how many times his words killed me. But now... It's the worst. Especially that I'm trying to lower my pride just to make this relationship work. I don't feel like myself anymore... This isn't me. Right now, I am not Cheon Seo Jin.

"You idiot, I did that because I'm trying to fix this family!" I already raised my voice, tears starting to fall. "I'm trying to make things work for Eun Byeol, OUR daughter. You always tell me to go easy on her, but in reality, it's you who's ruining her." I wiped my tears away but another set fell. I hate this feeling. "This is a constant phase between you and me... When will you ever change, Yoon Cheol? What else would you want me to do?"

"I want you to stop trying, Seo Jin. Stop acting like my wife." He stated, looking away. "Now, will you please get out of my sight? I really want to rest. You can at least give me that."

"Wow." I nodded and let out a sarcastic laugh. "How about you leave my house and go back to Yoon Hee? Huh? Can you do that?" Clenching my fist, I pushed him away from me. "I couldn't stand looking at you. You disgust me." I spat, my expression starts to return into blank. Yes, it's true. He's seeing his first love behind my back and yet I even brought him lunch. It's pathetic and a stupid, stupid move, Cheon Seo Jin.

I rolled my eyes when he looked surprised at my revelation. Did he think I wouldn't know his dirty secrets? Especially with that little wench, Oh Yoon Hee?

He opened his mouth to say something but I don't have the energy to listen to them anymore. I raised my hand to signal him to stop talking. "You know what, you're right. Let's do that. I'll stop acting like your wife and you stop acting like my husband. I'm done trying and trying... Just... Get out of my house."

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I went to the bar at Hera Palace after Yoon Cheol leaves. Of course, it's what he does. I feel physically numb. The only thing that I'm feeling right now is my heart throbbing... In pain? Jealousy? Anger? I don't know anymore. I spent my whole life trying to hide all my weaknesses. It feels wrong to open up to someone and just be... me. No, I couldn't do that. The last time that I did that, it didn't end up well. It only made things worst for me.

Yoon Cheol...

He was the last person I trusted with all my vulnerabilities. All I wanted is to feel loved by someone. Not just because I'm the great Seo Jin who is always perfect and the best, but because I'm a human too and I am also capable of making mistakes.

And yet, he let me down... Again. He betrayed me... Again. The most painful part? He betrayed me by having an affair with my mortal enemy. Oh Yoon Hee.