Thoughts In Expression

Me in a nutshell (Fast rap)

I am cold, I am angry, but strangely, relatively I am fine

but what is fine, but another word for dying, crying, and straight up lying about what and who I am

I wear this mask say, "see I'm smiling, I'm happy, but honestly slipping my sanity"

They say I am cared for, therefore abligated to love, but how can I when I have been abandoned even by him above

God, I gave you everything, I prayed every night, asked please don't let mommy and Daddy fight

I wanted to make everything right, but apparently you delight in my plight, hidden from sight

You either hate me, distaste me, or just have too much faith in me because I fight on my own, no foot steps in the sand but my own, I am alone

I struggle and struggle and struggle, attempting to rebuild life from rubble, but pieces to my puzzle are missing, and I find myself wishing for a better life, while dismissing the past I've endured in strife, with demons trying to control my life

I'm just a boy God, not a fucking toy God, not something you can simply justifiably destroy God

After years with no answer, life left a disaster, I now have no master, God my hate for you grows faster and faster

I am fifteen, my feelings are mixing, I've already began cutting, smother my blood in

Hear the screams, call the cops, will he live, I don't know, a crowd has gathered looking for a show,  his demons of the past, claws clasped, they have him at last

That is not me, it's the news, it's a sign I can no longer ignore the clues, stop singing the blues, time to grow up, my strength finally showed up, so dizzy I'm about to throw up

I am healing, rising, my destiny is right there, not complaining that life is not fair, fuck fair, working hard seeing success every where

Adversity teaching me to live life to my satisfactory, actually masterfully improving me

This is me, like me, hate me, I don't care, I am finally happy

Now you know my life in a nutshell, but hell......you still don't know me that well.