ADIÓS

Joo Seok Kyung

Author's note :
The story might trigger anxiety, depression and suicide thought.
If this is not a cup of your tea,
Feel free to skip this story.

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Family.
Is that word ever exist in this world?

It does exist, when I look at other Hera Kids : Ha Eun Byeol, Yoo Jenny, Lee Min Hyuk, even Hoon's Oppa loved one, Bae Rona. They have a mother or complete parents who truly love them. Also, they are blood related, so the bond must be strong. And at last, Joo Seok Hoon, the firstborn and only son of Joo Dantae, how much I envy you, Oppa. How much you loved by your Appa and... Ah, I can't even said the word anymore.

I won't say it directly to them, but yes, they are very lucky.

What about me?

Joo Seok Kyung.

A daughter born from rich family.

Also ...

The BULLY as they announced me.
Oh not they, it was someone, the first person who put the title on me. That someone who expelled me, not just from school but also from the place I lived in my whole life. Her hand that used to stroke my hair and cares my cheek softly, now turned to be the hand that laid on my face hardly. I'm so happy and honored tho because finally I got the first title without anyone's help. Thank you, dearest someone.

Someone I adored and I used to loved.

Someone I looked up to,
the Lady I used to call :

Eomma.

I think I have to call you Ms. Shim from now on.

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I stay in a closest place I can find for awhile. I have no idea where to go. But then when I lost in my thought, Appa called me. Seems like he knew what happened to me. Could that be a father-daughter bond?

Appa took me to a place where he suggested I should stay as long as I want. The safest place, he said. Ah, yes he still let me to call him Appa, but I feel I'm not worthy to say the term anymore.

At first, being alone here, I thought I will get some rest, a peaceful moment, to calm my mind because of  things that happened to me. Ah, wake up Seok Kyung-a!! Rest, calm, peace; those words won't fit in your life anymore.

It's time to reap the fruit for things I've done in my whole life. I did many sins, I made mistakes, but I don't expect the karma happened in a flash.

Next two days, I finally know the reason why Appa brought me here. He told me everything that has been hidden from me and Ms. Shim. He didn't miss any details of the whole story. But he said, one thing left I should't know yet, because he still look in to it. The mix feeling in my heart, my head wanted to explode for receiving too many informations. I couldn't scream, my eyes were out of tears.

The room has been silent for quite some time, until the cling sound caused by a sharp, metal object he put on the table.

He wanted me to kill him.

The evil in me whispered to do it quickly, but there's a small voice in my heart said: enough!

One title is enough, Kyung.

A bully.

I'm not adding another title in my last name.

He might be not my biological father, but he let me lives, even raised me until now. There were many reasons why he did those thing. And somehow, I believe him.

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I don't know how many days have passed by since that day. I just know that I'm still breathing, but my heart still can't feel anything.

Numb.

Empty.

I look at the small paper, a thing that used to be my favorite. The Joo Family photo. I remembered Appa put his arms around us, the big smile we put on our face, except Hoon Oppa, the one with the cool face. It's a candid picture taken by Appa's secretary (well it's Appa's request actually). How I wish we were actually a happy family.

Now it's all gone.

Do not ever wish for impossible thing, Seok Kyung-a.

You are alone now.

This is just a temporary place.

Start to live somewhere

Or...

Should I continue to live?

It's the right time now nobody ever consider me as a human being anymore. They don't even once worry with my whereabout, let alone my condition.

I don't belong anywhere.

Does someone even miss me if I'm gone?
Appa did miss me after the confession. But, I won't feel too confident. Can someone loved me as his daughter even we were not related all? Even Ms. Shim would be happy because she has nothing that will burdened her anymore.

Oh, wait...

I heard something.

Someone is coming to this place. Could it be... Appa? Or someone else?

Is this the silver lining in my life?

Which plea that God finally grant this fast?

The door is open.

"Anyeong, Joo Seok Kyung."

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๑  Writer's note  ๑

Hola!
Mian mian it took so long to update Begin Again. It's the writer's block 🙃. And now voila, another story is up!
This story mostly from Seok Kyung pov. There will be Dansu moment too, but sorry to let you down, this is not a romance story of Dansu. You can skip it, if this is not your cup of tea. But those who like it, please kindly vote and comments are welcome :)