Growing up; I always thought about how different my life would be if I had the unconditional love and support from my parents.
For as long as I can remember, my life has had some sort of abuse (wether that be my mother being abused by my father or my mother being emotionally and mentally abusive towards me and some of her past boyfriends being abusive towards me as well), some sort of addiction, men coming in and out of my life, my father leaving me behind many, many times, my mother being a controlling narcissist or me having toxic partners throughout the years of my beginnings of dating. Put all this together, it can be extremely mentally draining, especially since I'm only 19. It's gotten to the point where I don't really remember when I was last genuinely happy and I didn't have to fake my happiness or have to put on a front.
This is going to be a tell all, everything I can vividly remember, from when I was a young girl to previously.
