𝙲𝚞𝚛𝚎 𝚃𝚘 𝙼𝚢 𝙲𝚞𝚛𝚜𝚎 || 𝚃.𝙸𝚗𝚞𝚖𝚊𝚔𝚒

ℂ𝕙𝕒𝕡𝕥𝕖𝕣 32 - [𝕒 𝕝𝕠𝕟𝕘 𝕟𝕚𝕘𝕙𝕥]

That eye contact seems to have taken everything from me

'Thought we built a dynasty forever couldn't break down'

The way she looked into my eyes

The fact that I can hear the urge of crying from her voice

A tears slides down my cheek, hopefully no one noticed it

I felt very sorry

I know I shouldn't have used my curse against her no matter what

But still...

Maybe she did kissed Kamo-san?

If she did...

I shook my head violently trying to get all the thoughts out of my mind

I stood up from the seat and walked out of the room, without anyone noticing

At least that's what I thought

I need some air, and time alone to sort out everything that's going on in my mind

I stood just outside the Student Relaxation Centre, leaning on the pillar that Y/n leaned onto the first time we met each other

The corner of my lips curled up ever so slightly at the memory of the first sight I met her

Love at first sight, that's what they call it

I don't think it is, when we first met, I was just generally curious about her, the semi-grade 1 curse user or should I say the grade 1 curse user at such young age

Y/n seems to have some sort of power that made me completely addicted to her

In the end I couldn't focus when she's not around

I sighed deeply

To be honest, even if she kissed Kamo-san, I still love her

It isn't right I know, but I can't help it

"You look more awful than ever, Toge"

I looked up at the voice, only running into a pair of dark green eyes behind a glasses

"Konbu"

I replied, lazily, tired from the mental arguments

The two of us haven't talk at all since that incident

"You know, I really don't appreciate what you did to her"

Knowing exactly what she's talking about, I lowered my gaze

"I don't know what taken over me"

"Jealousy, you mean"

"Probably"

For a moment there was silent, until Maki deeply sighed

"Have you ever thought that what if that Nishimiya girl was lying"

My eyes widened a little at her words

I surely, didn't think about the possibility of Nishimiya lying to me

Think about it, if it was her plan, she has to get the two of us there at almost the exactly same time

And if anything goes wrong then it's over for her, it's too risky

But on the other hand, what if she did planned all of this?

Did the two of us just walked into her trap so easily?

And broke the dynasty we both created

"I was there all the time"

Hearing these words made my head shot up

Does that mean she knows the full story?

My eyes desperately looking into her dark green ones

"Before dinner, Y/n received a note from somebody asking her to go to the riverside after dinner, saying that it is something to do with your medicine"

"You know her better than me, she obviously decided to go for your sake"

"The note she was given clearly specified that she must go alone, but I went anyway, I am not leaving her alone, in some potential danger"

"Then the Nishimiya girl showed up, I waited and listened to their conversation because I trust Y/n and believe she can deal with that situation"

"Later, I saw you coming from a distance, I still decided not to intrude anything because I trusted you, I thought you would be able to protect her"

"But it turns out I was very wrong, you hurt her yourself, mentally and physically"

Her dark green eyes are filed with anger and regrets

"Just if I wasn't so hesitant, I might've been able to stop whatever happened"

I lowered my head breaking the eye contact

Out of shame and regrets

"I thought-"

"You thought Nishimiya was speaking truth and you thought Y/n did kiss Kamo because they were spending more time together than you two were and you got jealous"

"But Toge, you were spending equally amount of time with Nishimiya instead, have you ever thought that she would get jealous as well?"

Then it hit me, she would get jealous as well..

Have I ever take that into consideration, I don't think so

"How would she felt when you were spending all your time with Nishimiya and turns her down because of Nishimiya?"

Jealousy

"Jealousy"

She finished the sentence for me as I slides down with my back still on the pillar

"Toge, both of you were at fault in what happened because none of you chose to speak up about the negative feelings you both were receiving, cold wars is what ends everything"

Maki sat down next to me, patting my on the shoulder

"The two of you need to talk"

I nodded, we do, certainly need a conversation to talk everything out

"I'll leave you some time alone"

She then stood up again, turning around about to leave

"Maki"

I called, looked up at her as she turned her head to face me

"Hmm?"

"How can I get her back..."

"I don't know, I know she still cares for you, but I don't know how long it will last, you know her, she will probably force herself to get over you after you picked Nishimiya over her"

She sighed

"Just... don't hurt her more, she's been through enough"

That's the last thing Maki said before she start walking back into the common room

Leaving me debating with my thoughts

This is surely a long night...

- Finished: 09.10.2021
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