𝙲𝚞𝚛𝚎 𝚃𝚘 𝙼𝚢 𝙲𝚞𝚛𝚜𝚎 || 𝚃.𝙸𝚗𝚞𝚖𝚊𝚔𝚒

ℂ𝕙𝕒𝕡𝕥𝕖𝕣 15 - [𝕚 𝕥𝕙𝕠𝕦𝕘𝕙𝕥]

"Konbu?"

As I am about to walk upstairs to my room, I heard a voice from the common room

Quietly walking towards the common room, the door is half open

Inumaki-senpai is sitting on the sofa inside, his back facing me, seems like he's on phone with someone

"Hello Inumaki-chan"

The phone is on speaker, from the other end, it's Nishimiya's voice

My body froze at her voice, I don't really like Nishimiya that much

"Inumaki-chan, I miss you a lot you know"

"Shake~"

"Your so cute"

...

Through the phone I heard the cute voice of Nishimiya, but it's even more heartbreaking for me to hear Inumaki-senpai responding in a sweet way

Are they dating?

Does Inumaki-senpai likes her?

Was I ever something to him?

Questions filled my mind, I don't want to listen to the rest of the conversation anymore

I went upstairs into my room, closed my door before me legs give out

Sliding down the door, I buried my head in my knees, quietly crying

I hate it

I hate the feeling of being unsure

We've known each other for no more than 3 months, obviously he won't have anything for me

What was I expecting?

Remembering what happened on the night we went to the amusement, I forced a smile

Everything seems to be in sarcasm now

I grabbed my AirPods, my phone and my keys before going out

I need something to get my mind off from this, and the best I can think is to do more self-training

Closing the door behind me, I made my Rubik's cube appeared in one of my hand and walked down the stairs

Coincidence

Inumaki-senpai is coming up the stairs at the same time

The pair of violet eyes widened slightly after seeing me in this state

Knowing my eyes is definitely puffy, I quickly avoided the eye contact, walked passed him and put of my AirPods

I felt him stopped going up and looked at the direction I left

Not wanting to talk to him yet, I start running out of the Student Relaxation Centre until I reached the training courts

Holding back the urge of crying, I take a deep breath before focusing

I grabbed my iced katana and attack the target heartlessly and mercilessly

The only thing left on my mind is anger

I'm angry at him, angry at Nishimiya, angry at myself

I only came to a stop when the target in front of me is physically broken

Knowing something is still bothering me, I went for the second one

Third one followed by fourth

Then I lied down on the grass, panting hard while closing my eyes shut

The song I've been listening on repeat since I started training