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The beginning of new beginnings

"Wake up!" Jackson said urgently, trying to hide a laugh while shaking me gently. My eyes peeped open and I mumbled something then closed my eyes and then it hit me. We'd had fallen asleep in the barn!
I got up in a panic "what time is it?" Jackson looked at his watch. "It's about 7:30". I looked outside and saw it was still dark and caught on to what he was trying to do. "A.m or P.m?"
He looked to the side and said "A.m..." I smiled and said "A.m hmm.." he started to laugh and so did i.
"I was so close to tricking you right?" he said while grabbing my waist. I looked at him with soft eyes and a gentle voice "very close".
He started to pull me in closer until our lips were close to meeting. "I love you," he said softly. His warm breath overfilled my senses and couldn't bring me to say anything. After a moment of silence and smiles we lay down on the pile of hay that was slanted. Jackson's hands were on my face whipping my golden long hair out of the way. I grabbed his curly brown hair and was running my hands through this hair. I loved the way his hair curled and just loved playing with it. After a while of playing with his hair. He looked deep into my eyes and looked at my lips Then he kissed me.
Normally we would just talk in the barn and there were no feelings toward each other; we always told ourselves that we were just friends and nothing else until tonight. Tonight our true feelings came out. We were safe together and nothing could come between us.
" I should head home," I said with a big smile. Jackson let out a big sigh "we both should".
I started walking over to where I put my coat. Jackson watched my every move. The way I walked seemed to amazed him. He walked over to me slowly and noticed I was shivering. "You're shivering" he said very smiley "That coat of yours does nothing" he had reached over me and was towering over me grabbing his coat.
He handed me his big coat "here take mine" I took it and smelled it. "I love your smell" he went in for another kiss. This time it was a goodbye kiss. Jackson's parents owned this barn so he didn't have to travel far. He never was concerned for me to walk alone because we were just friends and that never crossed his mind. Now that we were more than friends he was very worried. "Let me walk you home, Noelle" he said looking down. I was shocked.
"I live across the street silly" I said while putting out my hand for his hand "but since we are together now i couldn't possibly say no." he smiled and took my hand. Our fingers interlocked. His palms were sweaty but I loved him and I didn't care.
Jackson opened the door for me and I walked through and waited for him. He had to lock the door to make sure the animals didn't have a way to get through. He grabbed my hand again and we started to walk. He noticed that I stopped to look at the stars. He noticed something was wrong.
" Aren't they beautiful Jackson?" I turned and a bust of wind made my hair move into my face which was not comfy and it made Jackson fall more in love with me. "Why are you so beautiful?" He said. I couldn't help but smiled. " Why are you so handsome?" A moment of silence until I said "Why did we wait till now?" Jackson ignored what I said and walked over and brushed the hair off my face and kissed me. Leaning in looking into my eyes he said "Here is my answer to your question," I was intrigued. "We both were not ready. Things were easier when we were friends. We both knew we had feelings for one another but ignored it because of the unknown. I love you and nothing will ever change that."
The love I had for Jackson was unbarbale and the love he had for me was also unbearable. "Let's take you home love" Jackson said with a cute smile. We walked across the street and he gave me a good night's kiss. He didn't know that would be his last meaningful kiss with me and neither did I. "I love you and good night." I said. "I love you too, goodnight". We both took our parts. I walked into my house and knew something was wrong.
The morning had come and I was getting ready for school. I did my hair in 2 french braids and put little to none make up on. I ran down the stairs to the smell of pancakes, my favorite. My dad was in the kitchen cooking, which is weird because my parents are never up in the morning. I was worried. Running down the stairs I could hear my parents argue "What's up dad?" I said. He looked up to me with heavy eyes and said "I'm sorry we didn't want this to happen. But it can help us, please consider us."
I was extremely confused not knowing what was going on. "Dad what happened I-" my mom came in and just busted out the news "You're getting married, and you better say yes." We stood in silence for awhile. I had a minute to process things but I was too shocked too say anything. It was quiet for a moment and I finally found out what to say "I'm only 16... I- I- I- can't get married. I need to experience love. You can't do this to me" i hit the counter in anger. My dad made his way over to me and i started to cry he started hugging me and crying along with me.My mom had finally spoke " we need the money and support. We found a great guy," i stopped her right there " A great guy? Have you stopped to think if I was in a relationship and that guy could possibly help with our money problem? I love him and You're selling me for money." there was a knock at the door. My mom was walking over to open the door. By her surprise Jackson was standing there. "Hello Jackson it's a lovely surprise to see you here." Jackson looked at her confused before he could get a word out my mom interrupted him "if you could wait for just 1 more minute that would be great and i'll send her out." he smiled and said "Thanks Ms.Barr"
My mom started to yell "IS THIS THE GUY YOU ARE IN LOVE WITH, YOU WHORE. THINK OF YOUR FAMILY YOU UNGRATEFUL BIT-" i stopped her before anything else was said " Yes i am in love with him. And I am not a whore thank you very much. I don't think i am being ungrateful and not thinking of others because that's all i do. Now excuse me before I am late for school." haven started walking out of the house and her mom grabbed her hand. "He's a prince. you could do 100% better than him." I looked at her with no love or guilt. "Leave me alone and let go." my mom let go and closed the door.