𝐂𝐡𝐞𝐫 - 𝐢𝐧 𝐦𝐲 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐝𝐬 (𝐀 𝐂𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐛𝐢𝐨𝐩𝐢𝐜 𝐟𝐚𝐧𝐟𝐢𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧)

1950𝐬, 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐫𝐝 𝐩𝐚𝐫𝐭

⚠️🆃︎🆁︎🅸︎🅶︎🅶︎🅴︎🆁︎🆆︎🅰︎🆁︎🅽︎🅸︎🅽︎🅶︎: Here is a detail "first time", If you can't read it then not see this chapter!⚠️

I'm 14 years old now and I'm in my high school in california. I have few friends but not so much. I try to grown my hair to look older. And behave like the older girls. In the break from school asks one of my friend to the other:

"Uhm...now I want talk to you about yesterday...you know..my first time between me and him."

She makes her a bit smaller and smiles. I was confused. I never heard of 'the first time'. But I'm silent and I listen to her. My other friend makes an exciting face

"Ohh really? Tell me...how was it?"

I was still confused what they mean. So I ask

"Uhm...what do you mean with...first time? What is this?"

My two friends look at me and they know that my mum talk with me never about some things. My one friend say

"First time means: First time to have sex."

I swallow down. In the last time I hear only in high school about the theme sex. I had never my first time but my first kiss with 12. He was 13. But it was wonderful. Next to the street he kissed me and it was a nice experience. But the first time? I never thought about it to do that. Should I do that?
After her answer I only nod. And she explains about her first time. Its interesting how she feels meanwhile but a bit scary too. I mean the boy comes in you. But it's nevertheless interesting to listen to her.

Few weeks later, I was together with a boy named Jeff. He was 4 years older than me and he is Italian. He lives few houses away and I ask my mother if I have a date with him

"Uhm...Mommy?"

My mum is cooking right now and she says

"Yes Cherilyn?"

I come closer to her and ask

"I...want meet with a friend..May I?"

It seems that she thought about that and says then after a while

"Yes..you can but only 2 hours...well in few minutes I meet with a friend in town. So you are for few hours alone okay?"

I nod. I'm alone for few hours? Should I come with Jeff to home and try my first time? I thought about it

"Thank you mum...and yes.. I'll do it.."

Then I run up to my room and search clothes what I can wear for the date.
Few minutes later I'm with Jeff outside. I talk with him and he is a funny guy. After a while he look at me

"May I visit your house? With you of course?"

He smiles at me. I was confused why he wants that. But I say:

"Oh..yes.. of course.."

I hold his hand and walk with him to home. Again I think about my first time meanwhile. At home I show him my room.

"I'm sorry...we are a bit poor...I hope this not disturb you."

Jeff chuckles

"Why should this disturb me? You are nevertheless a great girl."

I smile a bit as I hear that and I ask immediately

"Uhm...Jeff...can we..uhm..do my first time?"

I can't believe that I ask that. Jeff looks to me confused and flabbergasted

"What?"

I crossed my arms

"You know..you told me when I'm ready for my first time...I should say that to you..so..I'm ready..now.."

Jeff chuckles and say

"Then...let's go.."

First I don't know what to do now but then I wear out my trouser, my shirt and then my bra. Even though I'm really ashamed of my little breasts, I try to lie sexy on my bed. My one arm on my pillow and the other one on my stomach. Jeff comes closer to me and begins to wear out his things til he stands in front of me naked. I look into his eyes but after a while I must look down to his intim place. My breath will heavy as I see that. He crawls over me and takes the arm what lies on my stomach and lies it on the pillow. He holds it and begins to kiss me. I kiss him back and lies my other hand on his back. I don't dare to lie my hand on his butt but I stroke my hand everywhere over his back. After that kiss he kisses me on my breasts, stomach and in front my slip. I never had that feeling before and electricity sliding through my body. I look to the wall and open my mouth. Jeff look at me for a while til he slides my slip down. I realised after few seconds that I lie in front of him naked. What are his thoughts about my body? Like Jeff my body? I look at him. He takes the condom out of his pocket and makes it on. He crawls over me again and leans my legs on his hips. I watch what he is doing and I'm really tense so that I'm not moving almost. He lies his one hand on my lower leg. I'm excited what happened now but I'm a but afraid too. But suddenly makes Jeff a push and I lift short my head. I make a little sound and this feels not beautiful as I thought. My intim place hurts. I close my eyes and I make with my faces grimaces. The weird feeling that he comes in and out is weird and painful. After 40 seconds I say

"Jeff...JEFF ! Please stop!"

I push him away and he falls on the back. I lie there for few seconds and can't believe that is really happening now. I'm not a virgin anymore. Then I look at him

"Go away Jeff...go away!"

Jeff looks confused and stands up

"Huh?? You wanted that?!"

He takes his things. I stand up and takes my blanket to makes it around my body. I shove him out of my room

"Go away and I don't want see you again!"

Jeff looks more confused and I close the door. I hear the steps from Jeff that he go out from the house. I'm disturbed and stand for while on the same place. After a while I walk to my mirror from my room and my face shows a disturbing Cherilyn. So am I. I'm disturbed from my first time. It was painful and not beautiful. But I like the experience. I hope that the next one will be better. The only thing I want that I don't want see Jeff again.
Few hours later come my mum back to home. I sit again in the kitchen to try write my autograph. She comes in the kitchen and look at me

"And? How was the meet with your friends?"

I answer

"It was nice..yeah..really nice."

My mum smiles and go then away. I sighs and I'm still disturbed from my experience today. But tomorrow I'll talk with my friends about that and finally I belong to the older people...

(𝐘𝐞𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐩𝐞𝐧𝐬 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲. 𝐂𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐞𝐱𝐩𝐥𝐚𝐢𝐧𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐢𝐧 𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐛𝐨𝐨𝐤, 𝐛𝐮𝐲 𝐢𝐭 𝐢𝐟 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐭 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝 𝐢𝐭)