Lost feelings ~ xiaoven

11.

~at home~

"Oh xiao I see a little bit late are we ?"

"I was just out walking."

"Hey hey xiao where do you think you're going ?"

"To my room ? Where else should I go"

"No no we need to have a little chat" not again ganyu...

"But I don't want to right now"

"And I don't care , pfft should've stayed with the snakes"

"ANd someone who cheated on several people does ?"

"Yes as long I'm not a weirdo like you"

„As Long as i don't have weird horns I don't care , I'll be going to my room now"
This bitch has not right to even talk to me , I could just kill her right now if I want to

I went to my room , locking the door

I let myself fall on the bed

I don't wanna sleep... I don't wanna see it again ,I don't wanna see THEM again

Every time I go to sleep I have the same damn nightmares , I always the same things , it haunts me every day and night

But somehow when venti slept over , there was no nightmare , it was like a cure

I don't know how or why but venti was always different from the other , well at least for me he was different

To me he was special , something I couldn't live without

Even tho I managed around 6 years without him , maybe just the thought of him or  the thought of meeting him again was enough for me...?

But now the thought of leaving venti again was almost impossible for me

Maybe you could say venti was somehow everything to me ? Every time I'm around venti it just feels different from when I am with anyone else

~flashback (😱)~

"Look im sorry but I just have some feeling left for him , that doesn't change the fact that I still love you way more than anything ... can't you just believe me ?"

"We are over xiao. If you like someone else then go to them but it seems like I'm not meant to be with you , you promised me that I'm the only one that you will love and now this...? You lied to me and that's way worse than the other part"

I could feel my eyes tear up , his words stabbing me like knifes

I try to reach out to him , to somehow stop him but he was already too far away

My heart felt like it shattered into a million pieces , why did I even think it was a good idea telling him

Look where I am now

The next day he blocked me on almost everything and didn't answer any of my texts

I usually don't run after people but in this case , I did

Who wouldn't run after someone if it means that's you might have the chance of getting them back but it was too late

The damage was done and not only I was heart broke because so was he

~end of flashback~

If I just never told him but maybe it was good ? It just felt wrong to keep it to myself

If I didn't there would've been a chance that I would've never met venti again...?

Well I met venti again so let's just be happy with that

(Also like 4 hours passed and that why venti is kind of sober but venti somehow magically sobers up faster than others)
Venti <3

-xiao
-xiao
-xiao

-yea ?

-I just sneezed

-good for you

-was anybody talking about me or thinking about me ?!?!

-how am I supposed to know ?

-well maybe you were talking about me 😔

-well who am I supposed to talk to ? I'm litteraly alone in my room

-maybe you were talking to your inner demons

-haha very funny

I turned my phone off sighing , fuck that sneeze shit .
My face probably had a slight tint of pink

I mean who wouldn't , it's venti

~*ventis pov*~

Why does he always seem so disinterested when texting me ? Does he hate me ? Should I confront him about it ? Would that make things awakard ? Agh I don't know , I really wanna know

Pretty boy aka xiao

-xiao
-xiao
-xiao
-pretty boy
-xiao

-what do you need now ?

-Ugh why are you always so bored when talking to anyone

-bec it's just the way I am idk ? Do I really seem that bored ?

Great now I have embarrassed myself , shouldn't have asked

-NO NO U DINT WORRY ITS FINE ITS FIEN

-nice grammar venti

-STOIP BULLYING MEI

-but it's funny

-no it's very mean , my feelings are so hurt now 🔪🗡💀🍳🖤💔🔪⛓🚬🥀

-where tf did the egg come from ?

-ugh it's for the aesthetic xiao 🍳

-...

-anyways , do you have the math homework ? I don't understand it

-yes I do have it but I think if you don't understand it it would be better if I explain it to you or someone else

-you can explain that tommroowww because I think I'm too drunk for that but you can still gladly send the math homework

I think I'm enjoying texting with xiao a little bit too much but maybe it's just because I'm drunky drunk drunk

I'll just go to bed to fully sober up